updates!
its nationals peeps.

WEDNESDAY:
well woke up at 5.30am had my 200m heats in the morning together with Alicia and Meixian.
there are other events with other people.
we slept for awhile when we reach the stadium
warm-up together with when it was time
i felt okay.
the call room was cold as usual.
well i didn't know anyone in my heats
so no push.
so was pretty relax did a 28.42
its a sucky timing yes i freaking know.
qualified for semis the next day.
reach back school i was like half dead already.
slept early.


did i mention how much i love the sky,
i took pictures of the sky in the morning at the stadium that day.

THURSDAY:
well woke up the same time had semis in the morning again
event was like 11 something so sleep again
warm-up with Alicia and Meixian again
cause they also qualified
im the slowest among them ok.
i was really tired i dont know why
and my back hurt like crazy la cant bend and all
i was like what the hell
all the pain come at the wrong time-.-"
ran the semis with Fiona,Joanna and Jia Wen in my semis
got pissed of cause of my back pain and the girl that false start-.-"
i beat Jia Wen by a little, Fiona and Joanna was infront.
i ran a 28.42 again, damn slow
was thinking okay i wont qualify top 8.
but i did.
my back really hurt and i didn't wanna run
but everyone says just run for the points
for the freaking school i "tahan"
cause wanna win title.



i know i look damn freaking ugly in this photos
but this is the only photos i have for my race
my practice starts for semis

lunch i had like 2 slice bread,2 fishballs,1 nugget
i was like super full.
warmed up at 2 plus
back still hurts
before all my races i went to gideon for spray
unfortunately to me it was pretty useless
i ran the 200m
i couldn't move
i pratically stride and i did a 28.78 or something la
electronic time.
almost cried after my f-ing race
was only happy cause i wasn't last.

at night cluster activity i stayed in rec watch tv
slept early again
dead tired.

TODAY.FRIDAY:
had class after so long
english did functional writing
history i think im totally lost.
social studies even more lost.
my group didn't do ss so got extention which is good until monday
i did my part so thats good less work for the weekends.
no training in the afternoon slack till 2pm
went to physio, ms grace wasn't there so adda helped me check my back
she say joints are okay but she thinks i strained my back muscle
argh. okay like wth.
slacked and play in the room with divya and mx
until 4 plus nearly 5 when noreen sms me her mum fetching dont need to wait for her
so prepared and left school with divya.
drank bubble tea and walked around with her. until 7pm go home.
thanks shree.for everything.

this week was really weird
i don't even know whats going on anymore
all my pain and suffering i hide it inside
that i even have the strength to help others
instead of solving my own problems
i don't know whether to cry or laugh sometimes
havent been laughing my heart out for a long time
laugh yes, but not to the extend that im really happy.
when im alone i feel so much happier sometimes..
or sometimes worst..cause i just realise i got so much to think about
or can say worry about..
sometimes i wish i could be a kid again
with nothing to worry about.
i just feel like crying once again.
but i tell myself be strong
can i really be strong?

tomorrow going to watch harry potter and the order of the phoneix(did i spell it right?) with cousin.well thats one thing im glad.