Insane Moments

Between who you are and who you could be.

I'm Amanda. 20. I dance and I run.
Graduated from Leisure and Resort Management,
but I have no idea what I want from life yet.
Don't judge me.

OBS!!

Friday, November 25, 2005 @ 8:07 PM

hellos.WEDNESDAY was the day we went to OBS(outward bound singapore)..hahax.just came back like few hours ago.its was fun kind of challenging and exciting.i was in CRUX! woohoo!the first day we did crc and tunnel maze thingy.then slept in a treehut called uranus.hahax.hmmm..THURSDAY we went to pulau ubin before that we played punch at pulau ubin we build raft,cook own dinner and went for nightwalk at night.fun!..after night walk its like close to 11 we pitch our tent and brought it to the camp site(near the sea at the patch of grass) and THIS morning at 5.55..STORM!..rain rain..so we(mei xian,mariam,jannah.amanda lau,me) brought all our stuff indoors as fast as we could.when everyone which includes BOOTES and SCORPIUS were indoors everyone was practically drench.hahax..thanks to that STORM we manage to wake up in time.it acted as our alarm clock.we washed up and stuff ate our breakfast,and then we got ready for trekking.the same path for nightwalk.at both night and day..even though the road was rough.the scenary was beautiful.really enjoyed it.after trekking,we get ready to go back to sparkc..everyone was tired..but i guess everyone enjoyed ourself.at the plantation the auntie we met at our trekking we called her a pulau ubin-ian cause she live there?!..hahax.
many things happen..affected people emotionally..just hope its over..for crux,my group though we lost at punch and a fight broke out,people fell ill and we got lesser people then others,but everything still worked out.so LIFE goes on yeah!:)

CRUX-ALI,FIRMAN,JASPER,STANELY,JOHNATHAN,FARHAN,SYAZWAN,SHAFIQ,MEI XIAN,MARIAM,JANNAH,AMANDA LAU,AMANDA LEE(me)
TRAINER- HL* SURIN

harry potter:)

Sunday, November 20, 2005 @ 12:13 PM

heylos..yesterday was out the whole day.actually didn't decide to go out.but went to suntec met up with my cousin.hahax.we walked around and stuff..i practically shop.woah and spen 50 over dollars..after my cousin's music lesson we went to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire at 7.30..its was great..ticket was 9.50 so worth it cause the movie practically lasted from 7.30 to 10.hahax.then aunt and uncle came to give us a lift.we didn't ate dinner cause of the movie.so we went for supper or dinner..we passed by orchard cause we were suppose to eat there but we end up eating at redhill there..hahax.we reached my cousin's place like 12..i slept at like 12.30.soo fast today need to go school.-.-" oh man..i practically haven pack for OBS..hahax..later going home..hahax.everyone is on holiday we still got two weeks of school!!..aarrgghh.for no reason my hamstring hurts.xP..okay i'm done..
LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM
NOT WHAT I AM.
this is shit?..hahax.
after talking to nessa i just thought about stuff...

WELCOME TO MY LIFE
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
o you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
o you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
ou don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
o feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there..

english day

Friday, November 18, 2005 @ 8:39 PM

heylos..one week of school again..so boring is like practically everyone else got holiday.we don't..today is ENGLISH DAY!..hahax..no school went auditorium to watch plays.the sec twos and threes did GREAT today.it was funny and nice.hahax..and..whoo!..we got no PEP!..yays!..went up to hostel at 12.10.unpacked laundry..and have a nice sleep till 3 plus..hahax so nice:)..training today was tiring as usual..like duh.hmmm..suppose to do 4x 300m below err..55..but we were cursing and stuff for it to rain when we were doing drills..so we ran inside 4x instead..hmmm me and nessa ran together and we manage to mantain our timings all the way..we did medicine ball downstairs when the rained stop its like so yuck.its wet..and it keeps slipping off..hahax.hui lin gave me a lift to causeway..so nice of her:)in the bus home a freaking indian guy on the phone suddenly scolded f*ck you...crazy one..public somemore..hahax..the whole entire week was like so busy and tired..reading policy and poetry was hell man..hahax..next week obs yays:)ohh..and guess what?..freak manx..i failed my science with 45.8:( and got 85 top in class for maths:) damn crap..wonder how to tell my parents..aarrgghh!..don't know feel like going a not actually hahax..nothing to write le la..i want to watch harry potter..hahax:)
EVEN IF EVERYTHING IS SCREWED UP,
DON'T LET IT BRING YOU DOWN,
KEEP GOING AND NEVER GIVE UP:)

hahax..ouch

Sunday, November 13, 2005 @ 9:59 AM

heylos.hahax.my muscles still dam aching.i'm gonna like die for the rest of the week.hahax.friday was like wah lau what the..how could we do 500m in like 98,110 flat with like jogging at least we improved:)..yesterday suppose to go to town with JAMIE and SASA.but got cancelled.i went to suntec to meet my cousin and her friends instead.music clef got some 2nd ann* thing.so there was like a concert from 4-5.was there earlier..my cousin's friends were like practically jokers.hahax..so we walked around when candy empire and stuff..my cousin then went for her lessons and my cousin's friends and me waited for her to come our.she came our at like 6 the concert was still on.so we rushed down..it was great!..i saw someone playing the electric guitar that i know..but he don't know me.so sad..hahax.never mind..decided to go home by mrt.but chloe's mum say coming to fetch so we waited at north bridge road there.we went back to simei to fetch megan and rachel then we go out to eat.we came back at don't know what time.hahax.at 10 plus we and chloe played xbox CONKERS! till 11 plus cause we played on of the level like 3 times to hack the door and stuff so fun!!..later we're going out to watch movie.byebye.gtg.takkaires everyone!
LOVE AND PEACE TO THE WORLD:)

i'm home!yays!!

Friday, November 11, 2005 @ 9:57 PM

yays!i'm like finally home after a week of school.my muscles are like aching so badly.my legs,my hand,back,and my tail bone hurt..i think i'm dying..hahax.today oral is like so scary..lucky is not that bad.oh manx!..i read the" zhan" as "qie"..stupid chinese..hahax.pep felt so boring..feel like sleeping..hahax..training was like freaking tiring today.did 2x500m..and my calf muscle was aching so badly i can't walk!..aarrgghh.hmmm..summarise the whole week:is pratically boring..is like the same thing only that training's mezo cycle change.hahax.this morning the sec one tracker girls made the heffalump family??..hahax.its cute!..hahax..i tsmanian devil heffalump..hahax..there is micky heffalump.pooh heffalump.minnie heffalump.daffy heffalump.tweety heffalump.baby bugs heffalump.eyore heffalump and roo heffalump!..so nicee..:).hahax.and today got the mouth clicking thing on..the whole week everyone kept saying:put the lime in the coke you nut.hahax..i slept in divya and mariam's room for the first few days of the week cause wan yi was not in school she was as home taking her entrance exams..hahax..it was like so nice.i screwed up science and maths test.sigh..crap..maths haven do tesellations..i so lazy to draw..hahax..gonna be like "hardworking"..if i can..hahax..gonna do english..byes:)
LOVE AND PEACE TO THE WORLD! :)

stupid bro

Sunday, November 6, 2005 @ 2:34 PM

heyys.yesterday was like super boring.it was saturday..there is nothing on tv and practically nothing to do at home!..aarrgghh.i couldn't go out.cause i didn't know where to go.bro o levels on monday so he switched on the com only for music and he study on the bed.and i couldn't use the computer.i spend most of my time doing my homework yesterday..and sleeping:)i finished up history and english.only had something to do in the morning 8.30am cause was training at bukit gombak stadium with wayne and ms chan.quite tiring but overall not bad got new drill which happen to make me see how lousy my cordination is.hahax.i was tired after that so went home i bathe.and slept.till 4 plus.then i eat my lunch.hahax.crazy.
as for today,its like the same cycle.there is nothing on tv nothing to do at home,just that there is no training.i finish my homework so even worst!..hahax.i'm like super bored.only can blog next week.cause todayy must go back school le..sianz.i only want to go school cause of friends.now i'm super duper boredd..kayys.will someone give me something to do??..or at least do something with me?..sianzation*

craziness

Friday, November 4, 2005 @ 8:12 PM

heyys.never post yesterday:)..yesterday me and wan yi went town at 2pm wanted to watch movie earlier we watched sky high at 7.05pm.so long..we walked around town.and we spent our moneys mostly on food.so weird.hahax.but it was fun:)yays!
today i pon training..what the.didn't want to.crap now tomorrow have to train.aarrgghh.i met trish,eugene,jiao,shannon at bukit panjang mcdonalds to go to escape theme park at 10.30am.we took 960 bus then change to mrt then take 354 to downtown east.when we reach there found out escape close!..what the!..so we decided to eat lunch first.and check out if wild wild wet can wear t shirt and short.so can wear!yays!so we eat already go buy towel.only me and jiao got bring extra clothes.cool.so we went to wild wild wet and play!..so fun!we wear t shirt and board shorts.hahax.we saw collete there.we left at like 4.30 to change up and stuff then we head back home.when the mrt at simei.fadzly sms me say he saw me.hahax.i think my eye something wrong lors never see.hmmm..blabla..reach house here eat dinner with eugene and jiao.then i go home.i lazy elaborate today sorry people.hahax.it was a really fun day today.craziness manx.so boring tomorrow needa train.wahh lau...sianz.i'm soo tiredd now.hahax.so short manx

_just another dayy_

Wednesday, November 2, 2005 @ 5:52 PM

heyys.i'm like boredd now.today was okayy.i woke up at 7.10am slowly take my time got ready for training.then left house at 8am to take the bus 187 to woodlands bus interchange.when i reach there the bus just left amanda lau was inside.hahax.it was like 8.35 or something the bus came.ms ophelia was inside and two paddlers huimin and huiru plus me.hmmm..8.45 we reached the bus stop.then the paddlers walk ahead of me and ms ophelia.hahax.i slowly walk reach the void deck vanessa said"amanda!"..then i say"i'm not late!".its 8.53am when i reached..hahax.hmmm.we(team chan.hahax) warm-up with the jumpers.then stretching and stuff.test today we do..err.jumps.quite okay la.the bounding on a bit hard.jumpers tranining today was like so easy for them.sigh.hahax.after training i can't believe i was so "hardworking" in a sense of way to follow ms chan and walk to causeway.joel came along too.hmmm.i took 187 home.i reached bukit panjang i go to bukit panjang plaza walk around and eat lunch then go home.i bought mars bar:).hahax.reached home first thing bathe.then i switch on com cause bro not at home.been online since just now till now.been like so bored.hmmm.we got a conversation just now was like so confusing.lau,mariam,jannah,mel,piriyah,me..so confusing man.cause lau keep using the voice clip.hahaxwhile all of us i typing away.there was an interval break i was at dinner.but i send this before dinner i come back to edit it.hahax.to all indians.happy deepavali(hope i got it rite) for yesterday..and to all muslims hari raya for tomorrow!..hope and wish you all out there enjoy yourself in the coming days.i forgot thAT 31 october was halloween.pouts.too badd singapore don't celebrate it.cause i bet its fun:(
ENJOY PEOPLE!

SATURDAY 10.30AM BUKIT PANJANG PLAZA.ESCAPE THEME PARK HERE WE COME!..
hope i can go people!:)..hahax.i think i no money le after towning.hahax.loan me money somebody!..hahax.okayy joking.

why do i love ''him''..don't even want to.
i just can't let go.after all we've been through.it ended..
just like that.it end.i can't accept the ending.

my day

Tuesday, November 1, 2005 @ 9:22 PM

heyys.hahax.okayy i'm lame.hmmm..i woke up at 11 plus?..then i ate breakfast watch tv.my bro's not at home,so i switch on the computer.my mum call at about 12 plus asked me to buy lunch for myself and my dad.so like at 1 plus i bathe and left my house around 2 to bukit panjang plaza to buy lunch.i decided to eat there,at first wanted to eat macdonalds but didn't know what to eat so i went to long john silver to eat combo 1.hahax.i went up to buy my dad's food.which is chicken rice.hahax.i went popular to get some stuff..and realise my card expired.sigh.but never mind.hmmm..i walked around and went home at like 3 i think.and then i switch on the computer again.and played till like 4 or something close there.i watched tv and cleaned the house.hahax.i can't believe i cleaned the house.hahax.then my mum called told me my bro was buying dinner.so i stayed home watch tv till now.i have eat my dinner!..my bro called and told me he is coming back at 9.30!..wow!..gosh i pretty hungry now.but i'm still waiting for my dinner:)..am i gonna go escape on saturday?..not confirm yet..i think we really crazy yesterday we went orchard.saturday go escape.hahax.awww..dj is going back on sunday.manx gonna miss him.tomorrow got training so boring..gonna save money and buy ripcurl slippers:)i'm like totally lame.hahax.so bored.anyways..thats all i guess.hahax.bend it like beckham is a nice show:) its was on channel 5 just now.hahax.