It's been months since I blogged, everytime I blog I come with a heavy heart. Can't remember the last time my heart felt good about something. As I grow older, you start to know things and I realize the world isn't as simple as I thought. It's full of deceit, selfishness, competition and many other ugly side of the human race. Why can't the world be more simple? People try to bring down criminals, but think about why they are criminals and what circumstances coul have forced them to be who they are. Ask yourself if you were in their situation, wouldn't you do the same. I try looking from other's point of view, but why can't they do the same for me. I'm alway being too nice, but I have my limits too. People take advantage of me being nice all the time. I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't feel anything. Even friends, yes friends. If I feel like I'm having a war with you all the time, this isn't friendship. The environment and people are the one that help motivate you in whatever you do. And I guess dance was the wrong choice, all this while I feel like I'm struggling to fit in. But the dance scene works like this, if you're the best people will flock to you, If not you're just nothing. And I am nothing. I guess I'm tired of this all this while I couldn't see that track and my close friends was all I need. I guess Gem 7 might be my last. For now, I guess I'm still thinking hard about everything