this week was chaotic.
well i simply don't know what to say
just past so fast.

thai people came on sunday
and left today
well thinking i never see them again
its pretty sad
but life goes on.

i really wanna travel.
see the world out there someday.
i just need to see it with my own eyes
not just hear about it.
i just want that day to come.


chinese oral was on thursday
i screwed the passage big time
thanks to my throat infection thing
which screw me up the whole week.
so painful to even drink.
lucky the conversation part
the question i wanted came out
so yeah could answer
the teacher didn't ask me questions
so i thought was quite scary.


nationals coming in one weeks time
not sure if im ready but
oh well its coming.


O's is well on its way
im still slacking
and well bascially not prepared


trained in the morning today
did relay.4x80m and one 80m passing with noreen
didn't do 400m(:
cause im not running 400m for nationals

well had class and stuff.
went off around 3 plus 4 pm
with liangwei,gina,maybelline and meixian
wanted to watch movie but lazy
went to eat dessert
go popular.
i bought a $3 pen,eraser, 2 foolscap and a staple.
total like $12
plusbought a bigger pencil box cause i needed a bigger one
to put my stuffi still think its pretty big
wanted the other one
which is the right size
but the bigger one the design nicer!(:

pictures:

no idea what they were trying to do


meixian totally entertaining herself

me,habbs,soh and yuk(thai girls)

the cute thai guy(:
sad can't see him again!
he's a tracker!

when i change my perception of stuff
i moved on.
but i still think about you.
but i just i know i shouldn't
i still can't stop falling in love with you

what can i say
school is reopening.
tomorrow got to go back to school
i haven't even pack.
nice.

went for dance class
and then go out with cousin
watched GET SMART
funny movie but something is missing
not quite sure what.
oh well.

bought a FOX pants!
finally found shorts!
in that sense shorts.
i love it! woohoo!

tomorrow national juniors competition
probably i would screw up
just started pushing for track work
only like last week?
don't think its going to help me much
i pretty much off form STILL.
but oh well just compete for the sake of competing

I MET A NEW FRIEND TODAY(:
HER NAME IS FEN(NOT SURE HOW TO SPELL)
SAW HER AT OSCHOOL.
SHE BREAKDANCE.SEEN HER BEFORE(:

she told me to take the basic bboy courses
if i want,which i intend to
the sad thing is that it starts on 16 august
which is around prelims period.
thats going to be pretty bad
but i guess i can handle it.
its only one hour every saturday.
so yeah.i guess i'll sign up(:

I HOPE I'M FREE ON 5 SEPTEMBER
i wanna watch K.O night. but its at 8pm at paya lebar. singapore post.
Acky, Hilty& Bosch plus bboy gonza is coming.
so worth it. i should be free! but i scared if got training i die.

AND i'm totally not in a good mood today.

these days i kept thinking
thinking about stuff that im not suppose to
i don't want to fall in love with you
i know i won't

slept at 3.30am
woke up at 12.30am
slacked until 3 plus
then got ready by 4 to go meet hinann
at starbucks.
reached there around 4.10
yeap.

study until around 7pm she left.
trisha who was already there
at 3 plus went home at 5 plus
came back at 6 plus to continue studying
i studied with her from 7pm to 11pm
nice.
i reached home like 15 minutes ago
this is a quick post.
i finished chem paper.woohoo.
use today.the paper was quite tough
so many on organic chemistry.

tomorrow im not studying at all!
my slack day tomorrow
want to study don't find me.HAHA

GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE
COMPETING IN NATIONAL JUNIORS!

im competing on sunday.arghh.
rahh.

why is the world falling apart
everyone's breaking apart
drifting further away from each other.
hearing stories after stories
trying to do what i can to help
but i realise i can't do anything.
cause i numb myself years ago
that i can't remember how it feels anymore
i feel so cold to the world now
what did i turn myself into.
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today had training in the morning
well i suppose i improved from last week
but still feel and know im injured
cause leg got weak the last set
and started to move sideways
training wasn't so bad
except for the fact
it was REALLY HOT.

went for lunch with meixian
liangwei,joey,gina,divya
after lunch
everyone except gina and her bf
took train
meixian and i dropped at bishan
she followed me to rjc
to hand up the dsa documents

when we were going there called nessa
she didn't pick up
when we were leaving we called backed
to her missed call
she said she was in school canteen
so we went there to talk to her
cause she wanted to talk to us? haha
talk for about one hour till 3.30
then left.

went j8 for awhile
then there was nothing to do.
so went off

met trisha at starbucks around 5?
or something yeah.can't remember
studied/talk until 9.30pm
then went home?
reach home around 9.45pm

going starbucks tomorrow to meet hin ann.
need to drink something else tomorrow
or i'll keep drinking the same thing.rahh.
and i feel stress? i don't know haha.

TOMORROW I GOT NO CLASS
WOOHOO CAN SLEEP!

the more i know bout you
the more i'm afraid to know
i don't wanna sink deeper
into this one sided love

the picture quality is really bad
cause of the lighting
except the second one
which i find looks like
a weird family portrait

had training at 8am
damn slack today
jog stretch massage
ate lunch with like
habibah,divya,gina,yingjia,val and meixian

after that took a bus home
went to starbucks to study from like
12.30 to 6pm
wow
i finished social studies
and almost done with stalin's THICK notes.

saw trisha today.she study at starbucks with her friend

tomorrow track work-.-"
10.30am in school.
sianz after training got to go bishan just to
hand up the documents and stuff for DSA to rjc
which probably i won't make it
so thought of going cjc instead.

school is reopening SOON
got no idea should i look forward to it or dread it
haven't finish homework and stuff
loads of packing to do.
so dead.

*get off my back dude
to be honest i dont know you
or better still you don't even know me
stop acting like you know me
and just get lost.
i will appreciate it

i just can't stop thinking bout you
these days.
the way you dance is like in my head
reminiscing.

boring day.
stayed home whole day until dinner time

the nice part is that i watched
SKY OF LOVE(KOIZORA)
i love the show.
so nice.
i cried okay.
sad show.

finished history point form thing
yay.

tomorrow got training-.-"
10.30am

im still wondering should i rebond my hair.
dang it.

and im wondering if i should take locking 1 course
or wait for house 1 course
argh.or maybe popping course.

haruma miura
he's hot(:

i'm falling for you
someone i cannot fall for at all
you're the last person i should know.
i'm sorry, but i'm learning to forget.

today woke up at 11
went to oschool for dance class
the routine was sorta tough at the last part
but when i finally got it
it was sooo fun(:


met meixian after that.
i swear suntec convention centre
have hella lot of people.
haha(:


okay we went cine then to heeren
watch the dance competition
saw my bro there with all his
bboy/locker/popper friends
all affiliated to funk faction.


the competition was nice at the start
until the bboy there
me and mx left
cause it got pretty boring.
the popping session was so cool
with jsmooth
all the poppers look like robots. so coordinated
haha(:cool
plus k-lock. but he was good at practically everything
so talented(:

saw linette/faiz/kenneth/stanely/jiafa today.
meixian bought a cap
i felt like spending
so i bought a puma teeshirt
and a vcd sky of love today
wanted to get the paul frank shirt from
flash and splash
but it was like forty bucks.
hesitated.


i manage to find the super junior K.R.Y cd
but didn't know whether to buy it
cause it didn't have the songs i want
i mean yeah the song should be nice
but was too unsure


got loas of videos but so lazy to upload
i'll upload a picture.
i just edited.



oh meixian and i got
free vouchers
for toni&guy the salon
and $30 tagger bag voucher
how cool is that
got it from two foreigners who got it
and leaving tomorrow
so they gave it to us(:
wohoo!
thanks meixian for spending the day with me
once again!
if not i'll be soo lonely

thanks meixian for walking orchard with me
and being lame.HAHA.duhh.
and watching the sorta com thingy
k-lock was damn cool.
i lazy to upload the videos and all.
wanna watch tomorrow 4.30 at heeren.

had training in the morning yeah
timings suck like crap
well its too late
to change anything.


I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart


And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I’m keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
i know this is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.
Time of my life

i'm waiting for something
or someone
to change my life.
do i even believe in fate
and destiny.

Meixian if you actually read this
the youtube video i want you to watch
is shohei's solo and yokoi's solo
if you lazy to find it on my blog
go youtube search(:

woke up at 7am
went to school for physio

training at 11am
which was gym
plus some jumps before that.

after that went to causeway
with divya and val
i swear i never ran for a bus
SO FAR AWAY BEFORE!
my bag zip opened
half way running for the bus
my bottle fell out
lucky i heard the loud sound
when to pick it up
and continue running
damn tiring.

ate at macs with them
divya and i when to get movie tickets
for THE HAPPENING
the movie was alright
ending was sorta dumb though
but the show was actually nothing much
it was sorta scary cause of all the dead people
and how they actually kill themselves.
yeah.
enjoyable,sorta entertaining
but missing loads of stuff(:

me and divya got
chronicles of narnia: prince caspian stickers
ahha.sweet.
thanks to the guy collecting the tickets.

studied a little before the movie
im so screwed
one week left and
i havent done loads of stuff

so tired
tomorrow training again.
8am.i need to sleep.

when you look at me
you know something have changed
i've been screwing up my life
so bad that i don't even know what to do anymore
even though
many say "still got time work hard sure can"
or "o levels so easy" or better still
"you so smart".
but somewhere deep down inside of me
i know its not true anymore
somewhere inside
i know or its like a premonition
i'm going to screw my o levels big time
so what am i hoping for.
i've been waiting all this time
for a sign.for something
that would change all of these.
waiting for someone or something
that bring hope to me
to carry on living
like how it used to be a long time ago

you're so far away
but somehow i'm so interested
to know more bout you
i'm so afraid that i'll fall for you
i'm so tired of waiting for something that will never happen

today no class.woohoo
trained in the morning
just basketball,warm up
and a little massage
plus all the extra stretching in between

after lunch
reach home 1pm
seriously i slacked
i slept like one hour plus
cause i'm really tired.
i was suppose to study
end up using com for awhile and watch tv

didn't study the whole day=.=
screw up man
maybe tomorrow i'll study.




electric trouble(:


super junior K.R.Y (kyunhyun,ryeowook,yesung)
sub group of super junior
feel like buying their album
sorta into korean songs these days
weird
but yeah i find super junior's songs really not bad(:
they got really good voice too.

i never wanna stop dancing.
but am i made for it
do i believe

i woke up super duper early this morning.
i feel damn shite after that.
i got to stop typing like i'm talking crap man
no wonder my english is deproving-.-

woke up 5.50am-.-"
went for training
reach there around 7.35 with gina.
started a little earlier than the rest with divya
after warm up etc did a 300m
i was pretty enthusiastic about it.
amazingly..
but timing was crap
stupid heavy shoes for the last 100m
i think i was dragging it.
haha.
well shouldn't have hold the pace.
wasn't even that tired after that=.="

well finish at 8.30am
went to chem class at 9
class finish at 12pm

went to eat lunch with huihiang,
hinann,anthea,wayne,divya
at food court
got some funny pictures of wayne and anthea
hint*
but lazy to post now.

after that saw meixian,piriyah and noreen
at gelare.

went to esplanade to study
for like almost 30minutes or 45mins
i felt like sleeping
manage to wake myself up
and finish up my work.
not all but most of it

helped hinann buy her cd
i wanted to buy a dvd
but decided to save money first
cause i'm totally broke now.

and seriously i feel like watching
LAST 4 ONE CREW AT SPIN ODYSSEY!
but nevermind.

i'll give it a miss.i suppose unless someone wanted to watch

i decided to watch
BBOYS AND BALLERINAS
ON EITHER 26,27 OR 28 JUNE
WHO WANTS TO WATCH TELL ME!
DAMN INTERESTING GO CHECK SISTIC WEBSITE?
but the tickets quite expensive=.="
rahh.

today is a special day for piriyah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


quest dance like MJ
pretty cute though(:

yesterday's THE BIG GROOVE totally rock!
BS brothers, WRECKING CREW ORCHESTRA
O crew,KULTURE BREAK and
some local crew plus philippines.
totally awesome(:
didn't take photos
mainly cause didn't really have the time
and i didn't have my camera with me
except my phone.crap-.-"
but well its memories(:
bought the wrecking crew orchestra latest dvd(:
plus ordered the big groove dvd(:
i swear the items were dope.
people,i went alone but totally enjoyed myself
you people miss the history in the making.

know what BS brother is a 12 year old boy
and an 8 year old boy they do locking
and totally dope
and extremely cute.


credits to some guy who went to TGB

wrecking crew orchestra rock my world.
i totally admire shohei and yokoi.
even though hanai, dominique, take,bon,
sawada and uu were damn good too(:
WCO= dope.

credits to pentax or whatever.found it on google.

after everything had ended and everyone
went infront so didn't take much.
the 2 guys in cap and red are the BS brothers
sitting on the wrecking crew orchestra people
haha.

oh not to forget Dhami and jacky extremely
greate beatboxing(:
damn sad never take any photos.
shucks.
nevermind there is always next year
go amanda(:
keep that passion alive
don't let it die like it died for track.

THE BIG GROOVE IS JUST
DOPE! CAN'T GET OVER IT!

reached home at 11pm slept at 12.30
had chem class today from 9-12
then physio
and had training-.-
sick of it.
screw my life big time.
went to eat with meixian and divya
bought a cap and a bracelet thingy
i'm broke now haha. nice.


now i love dancing more than anything else in the world

its nearly 2am now
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIAM SHAZANA/DADDY/ELAINE(:
so many people's birthday haha.

just came back from paul's house not long ago
pictures and video below haha
especially
the weird video of desmond and henxin playing wii

i'm glad i went to paul's house instead of plaza sing
friends are like fun people to be with you know
haha
played asshole daidi and i'm like on a winning streak
sadly no cash money in
haha but its okay
played water game as well(:
damn funny!

the rest of the photo is with paul's camera:(
sad.oh wells. make do with the ones below first.

dang it haven't done any homework tomorrow morning
need to do
before going to TBG-.-"
die.go amanda.

AND I FORGOT TO MENTION
MY BRO BOUGHT AN IPOD TOUCH-.-"
BLOODY RICH.
HAHA.

THE BIG GROOVE IS TODAY AT 8PM
ITS A DANCE CONCERT.
WHOEVER INTERESTED PLEASE CALL ME!

two stupid thing will appear when i upload this.

no idea why so heck it alright

i'm stuck now with a decision to make
go paul's house or plaza sing to watch dance competition-.-
this sucks.
decide then.
my brain tells me one thing,my heart tells another.

watch KUNGFU PANDA yesterday.
seriously people go watch it.
it is super funny and entertaining(:
simply love it.

was pretty much slacking around after that
reached home around 11? not sure haha.
10 plus.

bought a purple coloured contacts today
no degree:(
cause my eyes were different in degree
so one was 125,one was 75
so coloured contacts don't have below 100
so this totally sucks
i thought both my eyes were 100
now it just changed.

and i had serious calve cramps
at 10 plus this morning
disturbed my sleep-.-"
what the hell.

1 MORE DAY TO THE BIG GROOVE(:

i don't know what to say about today
so shite
so pissed
such a dull day

getting some sort of lecture in the morning
not exactly how i want to start out my day.
its not my attitude,
its how the system goes
today i realise all of us are selfish
prioritise in different stuff.
always want things to go their way.
but do people stop and thing if others want the same thing

i definitely don't have a goal
and i hate this system that i can't decide
what i want to do in my effing life.
seriously can't i just decide
you people deciding everything makes it harder for us
not easier for us to live my life
i was already effed up about something else
one situation have to make everything go out of control in my mind.
i was so confused
don't know i should cry,laugh,be happy or sad.
you knows it really kills me when i'm like that
in a state, a feeling that my soul can't take it
and left my body.

even my parents don't decide.
who give you the authority to
seriously i don't know who i'm talking about
but whoever this is going out to
i'm just pissed off at the moment.

being at home alone always
helps me relax,think.
esplanade helps me sometimes
but i just can't find the time to go there

how many things are coming together now.
i need time to recover for my hamstring
when nationals is in 4 weeks
i know i cannot make it already
so not hoping for anything.

O's are this year
i can't even find time to study properly
or i can't even make myself concentrate
when my mind is always thinking
how to solve the problem in my life.
the crux of it all.

i don't feel like living sometimes
when i try hurting myself
the rational me will be there.
i just hope someone would just end all these for me.

5 MORE DAYS TO THE BIG GROOVE.
i seriously can't get over yokoi's and shohei's solo.

my leg feels like crap
getting worst but yet
i can't do a effing thing bout' it.
i totally give up. rahh.

finally found out the song title
jay sean- maybe.
woohoo.

oh forgot the two china swimmers came to our school again
haha saw them today
thought was weird
well damn a lot of people were in our school today so ya.
i can't seem to find myself
as each day pass
i'm more hidden behind the wall of emotions
i know i'm cold to others now
i know i'm always in a daze
i know i'm getting quieter
day by day.
but i can't help it
i'm becoming like this and i don't know why
maybe because i hate being taken for granted as a friend
i hate being an idiot
i hate getting stand up.
to be cold,to be quiet,to not say a damn thing,
to not even response
i don't get hurt.i don't feel the anger.
i don't feel a damn thing
just numb.
sometimes i wanna stop being like this
sometimes i really want to be back to my old self
i just can't do it.simple can't.

you and me we drifted apart
do you even effing know?
i thought we were friends
but seriously i feel like such an idiot
you use me when you have no other
dump me aside when you got company
is this call friend?
now i don't feel like seeing you
don't wanna hear a damn word from you
wishing that i never knew you sometimes.
why are you effing doing this to me
sometimes i feel that i assume too much
sometimes sensitive
but sometimes i think its all true
cause i can see it with my own eyes
i don't wanna say childish things like you stealing friends
but once all those who were my best company in classes
seem to drift away as well.
maybe now i just don't care.
cause its a feeling i'm so used to.

6 more days to THE BIG GROOVE!


yokoi (electric trouble) solo
including Acky(3d crew)
yoshie(be bop crew)
hiro(alma)

damn dope video!

i stayed home whole day
until dinner time
finished my homework

i'm looking for a damn nice song
which i don't even know the title
and the artist
this sucks-.-"

i just heard it at the ipod shop at wheelocks place
this is so damn dumb.

i wanna go for spin odyssey by last 4 one crew
dang it.

next saturday got bboy competition and plaza singapura! 7pm-10pm
have to celebrate dad's birthday
argh!.dinner=.="
cannot go-.-
wanna go..what the hell.