hey y'all
im taking time out now to update
a little on my life
actually not really
is just updating my stupid blog
HAHA.

its TUESDAY of my one week break already!
feel so sad.
less then one month till prelims
i need to be a mugger now
relaxing way too much

and im really sick now.
voice totally weird.
to the core man. hahaha.
but its really difficult to talk
i think its throat infection?!

today chem class from 8am to 12 plus plus
damn boring..
did like mole concept and practical
so sleepy

woke up late today!
ahaahha.

okay
got class on wednesday and friday!
boring!

now im at noreen's house
studying plus borrowing the computer(:
woohoo.

been just gettin' on with life(:

i need self control over you
cause im losing it
losing my mind and losing concentration
pardon me for bothering you
im so sorry
but i really am falling for you

holidays one week
woohoo.
but cannot partayye
cause it o level year
so its mugging time for muggers
damn.
haha

SS test was cancelled so only doing it
after the holidays
rahh.
make me study for nothing

well had A maths test today
didn't study at all
slacked like crap.
but i guess i'll pass
screwed up a question that im suppose
to know how to do.
apparently i was sleeping when she thought the question
BUT, i know how to do but sort of missed the first part.

got back chem test marks didn't study much too
well this whole chapter was really scary
cause i catch up totally on my own with the textbook
textbook is my friend now(:
haha okay i didn't do too bad even though i screwed the whole
terylene question, couldn't remember the structure.
but i got a 47/60 so not too bad(: could have done better though.

going home later. but im in a dilemma now
whether to stay in boarding or go home for holidays
people reading this
opinions please haha!
i feel like going home though
school is a place that is hard to unwind sometimes.
i dont know

to that one person i thought was my good friend
probably you never ever read this.
but.
thanks for leaving me behind for others
thanks for not standing by me
thanks for not being there when i need you
thanks for treating me as invisible
thanks for not including me in outings
thanks for not agreeing to study with me
and study with others instead
thanks for lying to my face
i always thought you were a friend,
maybe i was wrong
maybe it was just what i thought
thanks for turning me into what i don't want to be,
to shut my doors to the outside world
to laugh wholehearted and to be silence one more
but now i know how to move on
to let go of everything.
because of you i broke one simple rule
to hope for too much
hope for more than a friend like you can be.
the higher a hope, the harder i fall.that is it.
im free now, because i don't treat you like a close friend no more
the first friendship i let go and threw it away.
thanks for the memories
now i can concentrate and do what im suppose to do
not fret about friendship when i see you.

my love,its you that i want
but loving is a crime.

i need time
i needa break
im learning to let go of certain things
but certain things i just cant.

im stress to the max soon
had tp interview today
its all went all okay
played a little badminton
and head back to school

tomorrow got A math and ss test
so probably going to fail
my brain is pretty much dead
i cant remember things like i used to anymore
what is happening
i need an answer

holidays are starting
need to start mugging
i dont feel ready for anything

loving you is so wrong
but yet im still falling for you.
i dont wanna let go yet.
just yet..
i know you'll never know.

i stress i guess i really am.
damn im so lazy to reply tags sorry peeps
but i will(:

someonee:D - haha! you sec three haven't stress yet
now i super duper stress, how to be like you!

habibah- yes i totally can see! haha

siao lang liau - siao lang! woohoo thanks for everything!


okay damn i gtg.byee will bloggy soon
tomorrow tp interview-.-

its FRIDAY! yay
haven't been blogging.
damn.
haha

wednesday was national schools finals yeah
ran the relay
i totally screwed up but thank goodness we won(:
0.01. wahaha
took photos! but can't upload
my com still spoil.
damn.
and the IJC guy is woohoo.
maybe cause he's angmoh.
hahaha.

i need loads of time to catch up with homework
my weekend going to burn.
damn
ss package due tuesday
history test on the worst topic ever on monday
just kill me.
and i haven't even finish my chemistry.
oh before i forget

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HABIBAH AND HUI HIANG!

recently i feel i don't belong
especially class.i don't know why
people jsut treat me as invisble
or cliques just come into play
and im not included in
feeling so alone always
regretting not transferring out 3 years ago
i just need to hold on for 3 months.
just 3 months.. and i can finally break free from that feeling
i hate being treated as a competitor in class
not a friend
hate it when i need help but yet
can't find the comfort to ask anyone
cause it feels like a battlefiel.
every man for themselves
impossible?
but from my eyes everything its true.
i don't want to do this once again,
withdrawing myself away from everyone
hiding in my own world.
being quiet and never dare to speak up once again
isolating myself isn't the best thing i could do.
but sometimes i rather not face it.
because i hate to hurt others.
but yet others seem to always hurt me
take advantage of me.
im not a prop,im a person too.
i have feelings and emotions too
does anyone hear me.

talking to you brightens my day
im simply falling for you
but you don't know that, do you?

damn long never blog
im pretty much half dead now

stupid com at home spoil
im using noreen's one now
staying over at noreen's house with meixian now

nationals been pretty sucky this year
didn't get into top 8 for both individuals
feel so sad.
but with my current condition i can't help it
hope im alright by wednesday the FINALS
i really want that relay gold medal.BADLY

well went for dance class today
today's routine so hoppy
but fun
so check out youtube phivilous
for today's choreo video.

came to noreen's house to study
i study a bit
manage to finish fuels alkanes and alkenes.
still got to study alcohols,carboxylic acid and macromolecules
die la. quiz coming and i dont know anything
mondayy got e maths test.

just got to hope for the best

please don't give me hope
cause i don't want to fall back down harder

in school lousy computer lab now
just came back from choa chu kang stadium 2 hours ago
competed nationals 200m heats
tired but got to study later
don't know my timing yet
wanted to stay there but meixian wanted to come back
so came back.

ran with the TALL ang mo kio girl today
don't know her name but she's fast(:
my muscles cooled down before the race
was in the call room TOO DAMN LONG
quite tired even though it was a pretty slack race
don't think i did a good timing cause i know the last 80m
i was slow
oh well not hoping much

mr pedro said the 7th to qualify into the finals this year
would be 27.7 which i probably won't run now
just recovered(not totally though) from injury
maybe cause i haven't been to the physio
well and im still sick,with cough and stuff
shite.
if i can do my pb which i haven't done so in a long time
i can qualify. BUT pb was 2 years ago
and its FREAKING 27.5.damn.

tomorrow still got 100m.
O's is coming
kill me.rahh.

i wanna dance.cause i <3 it

actually i got no idea what to blog.
like honestly
meixian just drag me to the com lab

no training today and tomorrow
cause nationals is on thursday
don't know if im excited,scared
or heck care.
seriously i wanna compete
but so afraid i can't accept the results
well no choice right

gtg=.=" see ya