can't get over it
Tuesday, March 26, 2013 @ 11:07 PM
I wanna get over you
but i don't know how
It's been months, a lot of months
I don't know how long.
you're everything I don't look for
but of all the boys, i like you.
Why you?
I bet you're doing things that you don't even know sends the wrong signals
how to get over you?
just tell me how.
Take 8: GEM/ K's party
12:09 AM
Sooo, Take 8: GEM is over! a really tough but enjoyable experience. First GEM as an alumni, honestly it feels weird and its a totally different experience. When you aren't an alumni, after exams you can concentrate on just the concert, but being an alumni i can't. People work, some have school (like myself) and other commitments, meeting up alone is difficult. All of us have to sacrifice our weekends just to put an item together, guess that's what people do when they have something they love in common. I can never thank thepassionatedancingelders enough, everyone is so crazy. With like 5 trainings, no stage mark until after the first show, no full attendance until show day, it's just MAD. so glad we did it and manage to put up a pretty good item(: A bunch of amazing dancers that I get to perform with, feel so honored. In the process of GEM, there were so many unfamiliar faces, that i wished i knew all of them. Nevertheless so proud to see my juniors perform and what a good show they did. Hope they continue to grow as dancers, and cherish the time they have in TPDE. With school and all, i'm glad somehow i survived. It's snap back to reality, with two more stupid assignments and one presentation to go before exams! Hope I have time to join GEM 9. Thank you TPDE (including elders) for the wonderful experience and memories, we did it cause we believe it. Here's a bunch of random photos of Take 8: GEM! i'm out.
ThePassionateDancingElders - Credits to Serena
After the show Day 2, it was Kayla Kemomo's birthday party! so sorry that i went late and I missed out on most of the celebration. Thanks for the invite and for being one of my best friends! HAPPY 21ST MX! BEST WISHES ALWAYS, LOVE YOU MUCHH(:
xx
selfish
Sunday, March 24, 2013 @ 11:57 PM
I'm sorry I can't be the one that will be there for you immediately.
I seem to always have something else on
But, i'm so grateful for all the support I get.
I'll try to change.
A little bit longer
Tuesday, March 12, 2013 @ 12:48 AM
ARE YOU READY!
Feeling so excited, even though i'll be only doing one item
but, the feeling is really pretty insane maybe cause it's alumni item.
Hope everything goes well!
Especially my school work, hope i can finish at least 80% of Louis's assignment by Thursday!
*pray hard*
And a few more days before GEM 8 is over, and i wouldn't see you for awhile.
guess its all good =')
I knew it, Rumors huh.
Guess maybe its not so simple.
xx
a little bit longer and i'll be fine
weakness
Thursday, March 7, 2013 @ 12:17 AM
I promise myself I would move on
I promise myself I would forget about you
those are all the things i still want to do
but there are times when you feel the need to rant
which is right now for me.
I always wonder what is it about me that you can't trust
what is it about me that can't be compared to the rest
no matter how hard i try to lend you a hand, you never let me
and when some random person comes along you take it willingly
I said i'll be there for you, but you said you don't need it
Am i really not comparable to the rest?
Am i really that lousy in so many ways?
Or does look really matter to you too in this case.
I don't know what to do anymore to make you put your trust in me.
It's not that i'm not helping, it's not that i'm not trying
nothing is working and to me, maybe it's time i stopped trying
you can blame the whole world about how they ignore everything you say
but, the truth is, it's not like that.
I understand why people say certain things and you don't like it.
but, sometimes it's not their fault, you made them say it.
You're a true friend they say.
Maybe it's so true that I find it so difficult to keep.
You're true to everyone maybe not me
I don't like to hold on to things that are not mine
so i guess you're one of those things
maybe you're a mistake and everything as well.
If i'm not worthy of your trust, maybe cause i don't wanna be either
I don't wanna be treated like trash anymore
I'm a person, not someone you say hi whenever you want and the next moment say get lost to.
It's time I stopped letting you play me like a toy
It's time i put you behind
This time its true, i hope it is.
It's sad for it to be this way
but, you made me.
You hurt me and don't even give a shit.
Apologies doesn't seem to be in your dictionary
and i am sick and tired of it.
This could go on forever, but i guess i'm gonna stop right here
with a tough goodbye, and i'll see you whenever
hopefully by then i'll be alright, and you won't be able to hurt me no more.
xx
Fade, will it?
Sunday, March 3, 2013 @ 11:08 PM
I thought you needed me too, I thought your feelings were true
I thought you head was in my space
but now you've proven me wrong
but I will rise and be strong
and one day soon this pain will fade
I hate this so bad.
locked up inside
1:05 AM
when i thought its all gone, it came back without warning.
it's hurting all over again. why.
so broken inside that i find it hard to put it back together.
Do i really mean nothing to you at all.
All you see is others and never me
I'm just the one that came along and taken for granted.
I've learned being nice never pays, being nice means letting people climb over your head
but, i treat people how i want to be treated.
i guess people don't know the same logic.
I don't ask for much really, but to treat me like a person.
visible and existing.
I thought i was so over it
but i wasn't.
when i saw you i felt my whole world crash and burn.
i felt like every bit of happiness had flown away
i felt pain,sadness and anything possible that describes unhappiness.
i don't know why i felt that way
maybe because at that moment i know the feeling didn't go away
maybe because i know i'm not over it.
whatever it is, i always knew it wasn't worth it
the foolish me simply hang on to it.
my heart hurt so bad all i wanted to do was go to a corner and cry
but i didn't.
I know you aren't worth my tears
i probably felt the tears coming 4 times, but i held them back.
because i really felt that much pain inside me.
I thought it was over, because i buried everything inside of me.
deep down.
so when it came back, it sprung up so fast like a cannonball.
why you of all people
why you
why do i pick the one that doesn't give a shit about the world
why do i pick the one that helped me and cause me pain all at the same time
as much as i am so pissed off,sad and unhappy about the whole thing
what puzzles me is i can't help it.
i still feel that something.
it scares me sometimes.
but here's what i tell myself after all of those nonsense:
"I failed myself today, but i'm gonna be stronger tomorrow"
xx
sunshine after rain
Saturday, March 2, 2013 @ 12:59 AM
I like it this way.
February has been pretty good to me!
It's March by the way.
Hope it gets better!
Assignments are piling up and GEM is coming
so gotta work harder gogogo!
Stress but I'm gonna make it somehow.
Guess there goes my hours of sleep.
Certain sacrifices are worth making I guess,
I've made a lot of mistakes in my past but,
I don't want to go back there where everything felt so wrong.
So keep moving forward!
xx