Haven't been blogging because i've been really tired and i've no idea why. Travelling back and forth between home, sentosa and tp; waking up early in the morning for school; trying to stay alive listening to the long hours of lectures and crappy stuff, i'm still trying to be used to that again. After my 10 hours sleep everyday during the holidays. I'm hardly discipline now, i barely read, i barely study. I don't want my GPA to drop, really. With 2 CCAs right now, it's not much of a help, wonder why on earth i got myself into such a mess. Anyway let me go to the updates, before i start crapping.

Wednesday/Touring RWS
It was the day that LRM had a compulsory tour around Resort World Sentosa(RWS). Initially, i was dreading it like crazy because it's like 10AM to 3PM sort of thing. Somehow, the tour was pretty awesome. The hotels and facilities are really good, I love Hard Rock hotel. The interior is cool to the max.Also, we got to visit Universal Studios! Surprisingly, i saw Edmund and Jui Hsin there. Both having internship at USS, awesome or what. We watched the funny Madagascar show and sat Shrek 4D woohoo. Other than that was all walking. The only bad thing was the HOT weather, i swear i feel like i was going to get a heatstroke.

Thursday/Probably the most unlucky day anyone can have
Went to TP cause got CCA recruitment performance,went early to practise. Everything was alright for practise. When it came to the performance, production crew screwed our music. Our performance became some f*cked up shit. Maybe we could have been more professional about it, but sorry i couldn't help but feeling pissed and well screwed up mood. When i thought my bad luck was over, it wasn't. After dinner with K and D, i thought i could finally go home early. Left school to take a bus much earlier than the rest of the week. I reached Sim Lim bus stop at 9 plus, two buses came like with a 15 minutes interval, both buses are small and filled with people. I couldn't go up the bus cause there was damn a lot of f*cking people squeezing to go up the bus or refuse to put their fat ass in. Being totally annoyed and pissed, i called my dad to pick me. After being at the bus stop for 40 minutes, my dad came. Just before he did, my bus came, it was long and empty. What the crap is SMRT doing?, when it's peak hour you sent a short bus, when it's not a long bus. Are you kidding me?!

Friday/waiting is horrible
School at Sentosa, 2 lectures, i survived. Went back to TP for TPDE meeting and Seniors meeting. Feeling quite screwed about a lot of things, i kept quiet plus i had a sore throat. Just listened to what others have to say. I'm going to stop here before i say anything i don't wanna say, cause this blog is public. Sessioned after, not exactly but somewhat. The SC looks awesome at least, with Hip hop dancers, Funk stylers(includes bboys) and Modern dancers at each corner. Cool or what. Suppose to eat, but everyone left like so late. Well TPDE likes to drag, so i didn't eat and went off. Call dad to pick me up cause my last bus was gone anyway and since i didn't eat anything but bread the whole day, he brought me to this awesome place in Little India near Mustafa to eat Pig Organ soup. It was dope shit. The best Pig Organ soup i have drank. Awesome, reached home at 1AM. I was dead tired.

Today/It's been awhile, but oh well.
Went to Oschool for Popping Open class today! woohoo had loads of fun! The studio is awesome of course, and so is Ben. Sadly, the class is quiet, lucky there is Elke inside to sort of laugh with me. We felt like worms/fishes today, cause of tidal wave! Needless to say, the choreo is fun to the max. I learnt something new, which is the tidal wave and that you can do a lot of things at different height. Training how to hit cleaner. I realise my right hand pop is really shitty, and i am a right hander. what the crap. During hitting warm up my right hand died so much earlier than left hand. Must train hits! Met up with Chloe, we watched Kick Ass! It was a pretty funny show, everyone was dying in the movie. Sad of course, but good entertainment. Avatar CD is out, must buy! I want the headphones from HMV!! $99. gosh. i want. I need a lot of stuff and i want a lot of stuff too.

I joined trck and field once more, i'm afraid i cannot cope. but i need to discipline myself in order to make it true. I need and want to push you aside but you're still floating in my mind. What can i do to makes things right? My life feels like a thunderstorm.

Finally started running again on Wednesday
felt awesome even though the sun was hot as hell
and burning my skin. but somehow i felt good about it
(: maybe it's the passion.

Sessioned today at TCC
i really hate TCC
but don't really have a choice due to FO.
somehow my hip hop feel is weird these days
popping feel is better
oh well let it be.
just enjoy(:

This holiday is probably the first holiday that i didn't go town everyday
i use to either stay home or shop for my holidays
this is probably a change.
Somehow i don't feel awesome about it because i feel like
i never really had a proper rest.
but somehow it's probably the most fun.

going to watch nationals!
good luck all!(:

somehow i know i still like you
i wish i could venture into your thoughts

I don't even know how to put what i'm feeling in words.
That is how complicated things are now.
I try to be happy, I choose to be.
Some things are just easier said than done.
I can't just ignore everything, all the problems.
I just wish i could.
In the attempt to, someone would just remind me of
where i am and what i am suppose to be doing.
Why can't i just take an alternative route?
Why isn't there one for me.
I just need a breather. A way out.
Maybe just this once.
Too many thing happening to a not so great person, me.
It's just me being unlucky.
I can feel my heart hurting right now even though nothing is piercing it.

I hope we make it through i really do. Losing any of you, would be like losing a part of my life, part of who i am. We've been great friends for about 5 years. These 5 years had a lot of ups and downs. It probably contain the best memories of my life and i don't want it to end just yet. It's just a misunderstanding, all of it. No one is to blame. We all care and love each other to the bottom of our toes, we room-ed with each other and know everyone almost inside out. We just need to listen to each other right now, it isn't about blaming, it isn't about whose stand and who is right or wrong. It's about trust and understanding each other like we always have. This is probably the worst misunderstanding we had, it's all awkward now. We gotta try to fix this, cause we don't want to lose each other. I guess everyone need time to reflect and think. I just hope all of you are okay. Love you girls from the bottom of my heart.

Watched How to train your dragon,
it's a pretty good movie!
i love toothless.
i think clash of titans is better though.

I slept from 7am-8am
9am-12pm.
and came home and slept from 7pm-12am
Chalet..
well the room was pretty screwed
but nevertheless, the people made it fun!
thanks 1k05! would really miss you guys when we change class!
All the funny things happening all the time, i would really miss that.
Sadly, i couldn't stay but it was really awesome though i only stayed a night
I guess we really give a lot to each other, when we buy stuff we buy for everyone.
Everything is just for everyone.
Clash of the Titans at 2.25AM, though i never thought i could stay awake
but it was an awesome movie! woohoo!
and arcade before that was fun too!(:
Thanks guys, love you guys!