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Sunday, December 23, 2007 @ 3:09 PM
lazy and is at home
rotting.
damn bored today
tomorrow christmas eve already
thats fast
yesterday went out with serene,vivian and ziya
just walk walk then go grandma's house
eat.watch incredible tales then come home do nothing
cousin go out so got no one to go out with now.
-.-" no life.
what the hell.
reflection time then
school is reopening soon well last week of holiday
what can i say?
it has been freaking crazy year
but im really glad to meet a lot of friends and stuff
but i have my ups and downs
but is all in the past
so i'll continue moving forward
when school reopen
im going to become damn nerdy
i'll study like mad
haha(:
recently after training for so long
made me realise something about track
i realise i don't want that kind of lifestyle
train and train
it made me think..
why am i training
cause i don't even know what to look forward to
competitions? i don't even care.
well its not what i want.
i'll stop running soon if i dont go jc
if i do go jc i need dsa
so don't have a choice
i realise i rather dance then run.
well sometimes in life
we don't always get what we want
so i suppose its happening
i dont really have a choice but to run
because i choose sports school rather than other school
this seems to be something i regret.
but im still happy in sports school because
of the friends i make that make life less miserable
but i really wonder how things would be different
i suppose i would be dancing a lot right now.
i really envy my bro
even though he can be a real jerk
he loves what he does
and he really makes full use of his life and time
also he is so much smarter than me
well why i say that?
he can look at youtube and get dance moves and learn
different dance styles from there
he can beatbox,dance and study(if he really wants)
sometimes i learn a bit here and there from him
but i think he got a crew or something
he goes dancing like almost everyday
but thats how he gets ache and stuff but thats not the point
i think he is really cool.
this holiday might not be the best
might not be what everyone wish for
but at least it is a break
gives me time to think and relax
well nowadays
sometimes i feel so alone
well but not exactly
just that maybe as i make friends i lose some too
and friends that i have
are just so different from me
everyone is different
so their life and my life is different
in comparison of freedom that is
so i find my freedom pretty useless
because i don't have friends that can hang out and stuff as late as me and stuff.
only some.
next year is a brand new year
dont think much will change
but i know i havent after so long
actually i did change after primary school
in secondary school with different people im different
so i got no idea.but its okay.
what ever is ahead just bring it on.
and something is wrong with my blog-.-"