lost.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008 @ 3:40 PM
like seriously
i need a portal to say what i need to say.
broke down in physics class once again
i need to control my emotions
i realise what i once understand
wasn't what i understand now
i realise there's so many missing pieces in my mind
some of the pieces somehow just flew away
some are just hidden from me
unable to access it
i find it so hard to carry on
so hard to keep that fighting spirit inside of me
so difficult to just bring myself to even..try..
typing this post makes me wanna tear once again
but i know if i don't let the feeling go away
it'll be here to stay.
i just need to find that one link to physics.
somehow its so different.
why can't i just find the link to it
why can i easily just know what a person say about another subject
but never physics
feels like a stranger..
i don't know if i can make it
when everyone say i can..
just cause my other subjects are alright
but its different this time.
i know i was never as smart as my bro
but i was always willing to try
to change that..
i guess my parents sometimes wonder
how can my bro be so smart
but im so like..stupid
i wonder too ya know.
now i know maybe i should stop trying.
cause i think i've reach the end where all these started.
came across a quote from nicholas sparks book
a walk to remember
here it goes:
Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish
It does not take offense and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse,to trust, to hope and endure whatever comes