damn the prelims
Thursday, September 18, 2008 @ 4:35 PM
in com lab now
going to study later
got back more results from the prelims
first social studies
i did reasonably okay
screwed up source base like big time
got a nice zero for compare and contrast
i always do.which is a bad thing
got 14/25 for source base which is really BAD
luckily essay pulled my marks up like crazy
21/25(:
thats the only thing good
chemistry totally screwed up
just pass
i failed section B of paper two
i think?
yeah but passed overall
like a C5
same as mid years but worst
then mrs teo was like
"amanda what happened.."
and she asked if i studied
obviously i did.
my mind started wondering once more
what really happened?
is it really just stress? or other factors?
three teachers have been surprised by my unexpectedly poor performance
first, mrs james, second,ms kelly, third, mrs teo
well i don't know what to say to them
like i'm seriously speechless
like sorry doesn't even seem to be the right words to say.
i swear i studied even late into the night
esp history i slept at 1.30 to study for history
i seriously do not know what happened
even if you asked me a gazillion times i would tell you
either stress or i don't know
i doubt is stress.
sigh.
tomorrow is friday
totally unexpected
seem to just have pass so fast.
y'know something at the back of my head
makes me think which keep swaying my mood
i need to grap a hold of myself
what happened to the calm
sorta cool
amanda
never stressed out to the max
well controlled of her emotions(better than now)
amanda
you need to wake up
when i think bout' you
i really see the impossible
seeing everything that can never happened
yet i was foolish enough
to let myself fall into the fantasy of you
i wish you knew
i wish i really could just see you with my own eyes
yet i know it possibly never would be
i had a dream bout' you actually replying my comment
i smiled in my dreams.
this is how much i like you.
i tried so hard to just push you outta my mind
but someone it seems impossible
you seem to just taken over me like within minutes
i barely even know you
thats the weird thing.
i don't even know you
yet you just seem to create a wave
that pass through me.
i can spent my days just thinking about
you.
what you would be thinking and stuff
but why?
this is stupid i know.
this shouldn't be happening i know
yet i can't stop it from happening
its like its suppose to happen.
i just need a way
to forget you
on the other hand,
part of me is just praying
that you would feel
the same way i do.