Insane Moments

Between who you are and who you could be.

I'm Amanda. 20. I dance and I run.
Graduated from Leisure and Resort Management,
but I have no idea what I want from life yet.
Don't judge me.

Sunday, September 28, 2008 @ 12:17 AM

i don't know what is happening to me anymore
don't know how i can change it
i tried but failed
and find it really hard to try again
i don't wanna face it
and yet it is impossible to run away from it
what can i do.
i really do not know.
sigh

im failing history still

i don't know why

it doesn't seem like i am the one doing the paper

i don't feel like myself

i feel so lost

always in a daze

and my mind simply shuts down

or just drifts away

o levels is seriously coming

and i'm not prepared
or simply to say

my results are having a downfall

apparently at the wrong time

i don't know how am i to get back on track

when i don't even know what went wrong

my confidence of me getting 20 points and below for o's

simply dropped to zero

is not that i'm not studying

i'm trying..just trying

i study like everyone else

but..not working

i can't even lift my head up and say "i can" anymore

went to study today the whole afternoon in starbucks

with eugene and trisha

wanted to go dance class

but sacrfice.

maybe next week

well i'll see..

went out with cousin after that

nothing much to do

wanted to buy jack and rai cd

can't even find it.

sigh.

the F1 thing is going on

today was the qualifying round

tomorrow finals

quite a lot of people around

but lesser then i expected.

hmmm..the cars were really cool

didn't see a lot

only saw one that drove pass like for 5 secs

super high speed

and extremely loud engines
which actually could be heard from the shopping mall

or really far away.

saw the tv

1st massa

2nd hamilton

3rd raikkonen(not sure if i spelt it right)

wanted a shirt from four skins

but end up buying one

from graniph in bugis

still looking for a new era cap

can't find one that i like still.

sigh.

picture is from some guy's blog

well i found another possible course i can take if i go to poly
which is photography
i've always been interested in photography
but not the normal pictures that we take daily
like the really nice kinds like in national geographic and stuff
just never though about it as a job.
well..but i don't think it pays well
and equipment is really expensive
but dope.

i still don't know what i wanna do.
shouldn't think bout' it now
i still wanna dance
very much
more than anything right now
except that one person
who i'm still curious about
i just wanna know more..