things just aren't the same anymore
Monday, September 22, 2008 @ 9:24 PM
it is difficult when you try what you really feel
it is difficult when things aren't what they used to be
it is difficult when you have to fake a smile every single minute of the day
it is difficult when you have to lie everytime you failed to hide what you really feel
things have certainly changed for the worst
after seeing that one bank note thingy
sometimes i wished i didn't know
because i'm not the only one trying to hide things
my parents are too.
trying to hide every problem our family's going through
i don't wanna face it
but i have too
i tried to tell someone
tried to get it off me
but no one seems to listen
no one seems to understand
no one seems to care
why is it that everyone is oblivious to what is around them
i do envy those with an amazing family
and yet still complain about everything
life is just like this.
i know i shouldn't think bout' it
cause i know it would affect my O's
but i can't help it
i always tear when i'm alone
like today the moment i ended A math paper
emotions just seem to just flow
like reversing my whole entire body
28 days to O's
and the teachers, principal said
we suppose to have a strong mind, no hesitating bout' it
but in my heart i know there is hesitation now
i know i'm no longer as strong as i use to be
after each wave of problem
i just seem to have weaken
finding it a struggle to move on after each problem
i can't show any of this
but try to act like there is nothing wrong
but it's just difficult
cause no one seems to be there to light up the dark.
this week there is mock exams
screw it
totally flunk A math again.
and i'm having a headache.
and i totally want
the fa la la song by jack and rai
nice and happy.
i just wish you know how i feel
just wanna tell you that i really like you
but the possibility
that you will ever feel the same way about me
it is simply impossible.
but it's not wrong to like you