i can feel the pressure
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 @ 11:51 PM
wanna relax
wanna be able to think
wanna be able to know what i want
i asked myself so many questions
yet i can't answer a single one
after living for 16 years
i realise i don't even know myself well
don't even know who i am exactly
what i want in life.
pressure all around me
forcing me to think
forcing me to have an answer
it's driving me crazy, it really is
no matter what i do
i'm never good enough
in your eyes do you even care where i end up
i really wanna know the answer
if i disappear would you even care
you probably would just pin all your hopes on your son
and in your heart know that he would be successful
cause he's all that you ever wanted.
why am i even here
what am i doing.
today i trained
did stridings in the morning
started work at one and worked till night
learnt how to use a microsoft excel.
and two more days till the british swim team are gone
i probably would miss them
not because they're hot, even though they are
but probably cause of their funny presence
i feel happy talking to them
cause they crack really stupid jokes and they're really nice people to talk to
so far i've got 3 names chris,robin and adam
plus the coaches and team manager. chris,liam and hazel
other than that i'm stuck no time to ask
reached home at 11 again
not working tomorrow.
going tp to see the sports guy.
that's all. good bye
oh and i love the song on my blog
peace, serenity,tranquil