I'm Amanda. 20. I dance and I run.
Graduated from Leisure and Resort Management,
but I have no idea what I want from life yet.
Don't judge me.
reality check
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 12:33 PM

it's early in the morning and my heart is really moaning.
thinking about waking up early in the morning sends my heart,body and soul to constant strain
reggae in the morning, people are very nice
just quieter this time and REGGAE IS TIRING
i think my hips are gonna ache like tomorrow, seriously
but it's fun, being sexy is so hard.
seriously. cause i totally like fail.
street jazz was the same time, i think they're really good
the seniors totally pick all the right people to dance street jazz
all of them are like sharp, sharp and sharp.
i was late like 20 minutes
cannot be late tomorrow

Frolick is good=)

working hard for everything i want is so tough
people who opens their mouth and get every single thing they want are so fortunate
they should be grateful that their family is rich or at least financially stable
but there are some who are not grateful, unhappy even though they can afford and have all material items
and unhappy with their family for who knows what reasons
these people please do a reality check, please bang your head against the war and knock yourself out
thinking of ways to get what i want, trying find money from what seems like thin air.
and forgoing certain things that i want is tough, because all i can do is envy others and fake a smile
why does the world revolve around that thing made of paper with numbers on it.
i hate the world this way, everyone is materialistic.
i know i am too, i want too many things but i can't afford it.

somehow, this holiday i learnt something
there are things you can do without spending.
hanging out with Divya and Mei Xian helps me save money
cause we're always looking for things that doesn't require money to do and yet have a happy memorable day.
even though somewhere in my heart i know i still want a lot of things, but it helps reduce desires

why do i say all this, cause House course at Studio Wu is in October
it cost $250++ and i have no $ to go and pay for it
all i wanna do is learn, and have to pay that amount.
it's a killer