My aunt passed away on Friday
like 3AM in the morning or something.
well these few days had been crazy.
it just seem to dramatic.
my aunt passed away two days before her daughter-my cousin- gets married
and the wedding cannot be cancelled
missing her own mum's cremation.
and with so many activities on, i didn't get to pay my last respects to my aunt
my mum probably know i ain't that happy
so when i have to go represent the family at my cousin's wedding today, she told me "be happy"
it felt horrible, but my cousin must have felt worst.
in these difficult times, im learning to be strong
i hope everyone in the family is doing the same
we just need a little laughter once again

i'm really sorry about not being able to pay my last respects to you
you watched me grew up,
i remember you at every family gathering, remembering your well wishes
remembering the times when i was a kid at your place doing all sorts of nonsense.
remembering the last dinner we had together this year in Chinatown,
when you were sick, losing your hair, but you were smiling at the dinner
radiating light from your face. enjoying yourself.
i never thought that would be the last few moments i saw you.
i never thought i would wake up one friday morning, and hear the news about your death.
i do hope you leave in peace. you have 3 amazing daughters and you've done a really great job in raising them.
i'll remember all that you've done, i'll remember you in my heart.
thank you for everything you've done that made a difference in my life.