so many things in my mind
yet i can't put it in words.

don't feel like speaking, cause no one would give a shit about what i'm saying
people, if you honestly don't care about someone stop acting.
it's damn irritating.

sometimes, even though you're better doesn't mean you understand.
why can't a fucking person understand the word explore.
i know i'm not good, i know that.
doesn't mean i can't explore.
"the moment you think you've graduated from basics,
the moment you think you're good
you've going down"
why doesn't anyone train basics, what's the point of learning all the moves
and know nothing about where the move comes from.
whatever i say is wrong, it's never right
no one listens, no one care.
cause whatever others say is right.
i should just talk less,
no, just try not to talk.keeping my mouth shut is the best.

am i really that fucking non-existen
i should just fucking die.
lessen the burden of my family at least.
i'm like so stupid and useless.
just die alright?

recently, i feel that i just made a wrong choice.
wrong path.
cause i'm not feeling happy anymore.

remember: discipline, dedicated ,focus and enjoy

apparently, i'm not remembering, not doing it.