it's like about 15 minutes before midnight
which means i'm turning 18 soon
i don't fear the number.
i just feel like i'm suddenly becoming like 20 years older
instead of a one year jump.

18 years of living
well i remember a lot of stuff
from being a little innocent kid
to loving sports, especially track
and ending up in tp currently.
i miss a lot of things
i know i regret doing and not doing certain things
but all that matters is that i cherished what i once had
and everyting remains good memories
bad memories are part of my life
every single horrible and embarassing moment
i do remember them, more clearly than the good ones.

today i thought about a lot of stuff
what if no one remembers my birthday?
what if i wasn't happy at all?
i guess i won't be extremely upset
i'm just glad i'm living, it's just a birthday
obviously like most people i wish to celebrate
i wish to the world it's my birthday(not literally)
but circumstances change and things happen
i just got to live with it right?

one thing i'm sure of is that the day would pass as quickly as it comes
so i hope i can make the best of it.

goodbye world
i just pray i'm happy