changes
Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 2:31 AM
is me or is it people around me
i try to ignore it
push the feeling away
but it seems all i've been trying to do
is run away from the truth.
i feel so forgotten these days
it really sucks when you treat people as your friend
and they treat you like a nobody
sometimes i wonder are you really my friend?
or are you just saying it cause i'm there?
or for the sake of saying it?
i rather people just tell me straight to my face
then give me some shitass lies or treat me non-existence
when i'm just right in front of your fucking face.
really, if you don't want me there just tell me,
saves your time and mine.
applies to all.
i don't want to be an idiot, who is obviously not welcome
and there getting cold shoulders.
it's been weeks, really i hate it.
and you think i'm stupid not to know anything?
you guys are the ones that saying the latest happenings in front of me
and you guys can go "oh no one tell you?"
please stop being a hypocrite and get the fuck away.
shedding tears, god knows whether is it real
and the whole world just surround you
you've got every fucking shit in your life
i have nothing, not even a full family at home for 5 minutes.
when i cry no one sees, no one knows.
what i have is my pillow, bolster, bed and an empty house to lean on.
friends or no friends, i really don't even know who are my friends
i trust only the closest, the ssp.
cause i know you guys got my back.
laugh all you want, is it really that funny, come to think of it.
just fuck my life.really.
it would really be awesome if it ends right now.