Listen
Tuesday, August 28, 2012 @ 11:44 PM
"Can you listen?" But I am.
When would someone like you listen to me?
Tell me, when did you ever listen to me?
You never cared about my opinion, never cared about what I have to say.
Everyone always had to do it your way.
The reason why we have nothing to talk about anymore,it's cause I can't bear to say anything to you.
It's gonna be that kind of one sided conversation.
It's not that I'm not trying,
It's cause I don't want life to be like that.
Why must I always be that person trying?
When you don't make any effort.
Home and taking care of your children is more than just supplying them allowance.
I know you worked hard, I know that. I'm not blind.
It's just that things change so drastically, I don't understand why.
In the past, we had quality time together, we had warmth, we had memories in the house.
Now, this house is nothing but pain for me, all i remember is the smell of smoke each day.
All I know is that I wanna leave this place.
Smoking every single fucking damn day.
Can you see what you've become?
You can't see it's hurting me.
You can't see that it's causing the drift.
You can't see nothing.
One day, when I had enough, I would just leave.
I told mummy once when we quarreled that I wanted to jump out the window,
so many times I wished I did. Maybe it's better for everyone.
It's the logical side of me that saved me.
It wasn't you because you never fucking cared even if i cried.
You just scolded me for the way I talked back.
You don't even bother finding out the reason why I talk like that to you and mum.
People say I shouldn't talk like that to y'all.
I do that because I really can't be bothered with you.
If I had the financial ability to support myself,
I would a long time ago.
It's not that I changed for the worst, it was you.
It was you that changed me like that.
You never bothered to listen to what I have to say.
I should be the one saying "Can You listen"