I promise myself I would be strong
I promise myself I would move on
I promise myself I would forget about you
those are all the things i still want to do
but there are times when you feel the need to rant
which is right now for me.

I always wonder what is it about me that you can't trust
what is it about me that can't be compared to the rest
no matter how hard i try to lend you a hand, you never let me
and when some random person comes along you take it willingly
I said i'll be there for you, but you said you don't need it
Am i really not comparable to the rest?
Am i really that lousy in so many ways?
Or does look really matter to you too in this case.
I don't know what to do anymore to make you put your trust in me.
It's not that i'm not helping, it's not that i'm not trying
nothing is working and to me, maybe it's time i stopped trying
you can blame the whole world about how they ignore everything you say
but, the truth is, it's not like that.
I understand why people say certain things and you don't like it.
but, sometimes it's not their fault, you made them say it.
You're a true friend they say.
Maybe it's so true that I find it so difficult to keep.
You're true to everyone maybe not me
I don't like to hold on to things that are not mine
so i guess you're one of those things
maybe you're a mistake and everything as well.
If i'm not worthy of your trust, maybe cause i don't wanna be either
I don't wanna be treated like trash anymore
I'm a person, not someone you say hi whenever you want and the next moment say get lost to.
It's time I stopped letting you play me like a toy
It's time i put you behind
This time its true, i hope it is.
It's sad for it to be this way
but, you made me.
You hurt me and don't even give a shit.
Apologies doesn't seem to be in your dictionary
and i am sick and tired of it.
This could go on forever, but i guess i'm gonna stop right here
with a tough goodbye, and i'll see you whenever
hopefully by then i'll be alright, and you won't be able to hurt me no more.

xx