its not a good week
been sick.
training sucks ms chan still not around.
Monday: 5x120m
Tuesday: medicine 1 set 6kg
i pratically almost died cannot breathe la what the hell.

Wednesday went to bandar penawa
its nice and big(:
i took part in 100m and 4by100m
felt weak but still i ran.screwed 100m due to starts problem.
team chan got people only so we took this nice bus with all the staff, big and comfy(: aircon cold(: haha!(:
we all slept and laugh in the bus.
habibah got most of the photos of the trip haha!
i took some pictures with my phone haha!

habibs and weining.

psp crazy LOL

jared,aaron,habibs,me,gina <3


this is meixian i dont even know what the hell she was doing on the bus!


crazy people, i think i just woke up.HAHA.small eyes


i got like no body the first one.haha! <3

the moon that night i think?
well i know its liek super far away i don't know how many lightyears.but ya its really round and bright..beautiful.

Thursday: ms chan back
i have physics test.
did starts and medicine ball
saw asean school people from other schools training.

Friday: today sucked
got back physics test results i flunked the shit cause i blanked out in the stupid test
got 3/20 wow.i dont even know wth im doing
had math test blank again! i did a similar question on thursday as practice and yet i couldn't do the test.ughh wth.
was doing indian dance for pep
training was worst its not the programme that suck..
its me..
its only 2x300m
and yet i couldn't complete it.
im sick and couldn't breathe afetr the first one
i felt suffocated like someone was pressing on me.
i wanted to kick the stupid toilet door but lucky gina came in.
thanks a lot girl(:
didn't do the second one-.-"
ughh..hate being sick!!!
im becoming weaker
by seconds,minutes,days or months.
i do not know why
but i know i am.
deterioting everyday
just makes me wanna give up even more.
i knew that i couldn't do or give any surprises anymore
but i was willing to try, and fight against all i believe in
now.. facts are right in my face.
knowing it once again..
hit me hard.. so hard that i can't even pick myself up
now everything just getting worst..
whether is it studies,sports or anything else that i know and feel.
will it just stop..
i rather give up than continue.

is a path i should never have taken

fair,dark,

the only thing that keeps me going is..
friends.

ndp preview thingy some weeks ago.nice lightings.




i love running or let me say short sprinting.maybe even more than dancing.
just wanna say
sorry..to coach(if she even cared),family maybe friends.
maybe it is wrong to feel this way maybe its wrong to give up in the first place.
this is only choice i never know whether i did it right or wrong
whether i regret it or not
cause negative and postitive things happen
usually..
negative. like wtf.