pain
Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @ 10:27 PM
i'm having like weird
gastric stomach pain thing.
argh.
it feels like hell.
gastric stomach pain thing.
argh.
it feels like hell.
okay today went fudin's house for hari raya thing
in the afternoon
met dom, jamie,meixian and noreen
we went together
yeah.thats all
tried to study in the morning
apparently cannot make it.
haha
and i got to wake up like super early
to go school tomorrow
it sucks when i finally thought
that there was something i finally can do
something i love, and something i was willing to work hard for
harder than anything i've known
but when someone say "stop trying to be someone you're not"
or just simply say"you suck", or "you can't make it"
what do i do, what does that leave me
to keep on going
or just stay put at where i am
and find another direction.
it simply hit me so hard
that now i'm at a loss
was i really pretending?
somewhere deep inside i know i've always been hip hoppy/tom boyyish
i mean yeah feminine side do come into play at times
i've always hidden behind other's shadows no matter what i do
well mostly my bro,he's good i know he is
does that mean i'll never be as good
i wonder in my parents eyes
do they ever see me
or do they just let me be cause they think im hopeless
sometimes i hope i'm wrong
but at times, i do see preferances coming into place
whatever i say i do is always wrong.
will it always remain that way.
wrecking crew orchestra