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my heart hurts but i don't know why
everyday is a challenge
but living every minute and second now, feels like hell
so many things are happening at one go, and i don't know how to handle it
sometimes, i just wish i could go back to the past
when i lie on the playground floor, look at the clouds past by and think about everything
now i don't even have the time to think. clearly
i can't even explain what i'm feeling now
i feel like crying, but i don't wanna cry
but the longer i hold everything in, i feel like i'm overloading
but i don't know what i'm holding in.
i feel i'm living alone
family doesn't feel like a family
friends..well i don't know
sometimes i think i'm so used to no one being home
i don't feel like talking to anyone when i'm home
and i just don't feel like staying home when people are home
the feeling of alone is nice and upsetting at the same time
i just don't know what's happening to my life now.
i wish i could just cry it out.

i don't know how much i want modern, but i feel like i'm stuck in the middle
i'm afraid of it, yet i wanna try it.