It's a monday, not beautiful at all. How i wish it was the holidays where i can just sink into the comforts of my super single bed and not get up. It was a crazy weekend i've got to say. RESEARCH. That is what occupied most of my weekend, other than dance, SIP briefing and watching Megamind that is.

Sidetrack a little, An An taught her recital choreography in class, awesomeeee! but high level of diffculty which i died. SIP breifing was.. well you can picture it like a lecture at 9AM in the morning. Megamind was funny, but i think Kungfu Panda is still the best cartoon movie i've watched.

Anyway, back to research. Tourism,Culture and Society presentation literally sucked the life out of me. It was difficult to find information, the internet literally has no information on Cultural Tourism, let alone the contribution to economic, social and environmental development. I simply elaborate my way through the presentation since my slides were hardly passable with no visuals and case study. I felt like a screwed up case. Thank goodness it's over. Both my individual presentations that is. But, there are many other deadline and crazy things upcoming.

This week:
Tuesday - SSM operations 2nd week
Wednesday- BESE test
Thursday - Understanding Art, Visual journal entry
Friday - Tourism, Culture & Society test

Next Week:
Monday - M.I.C.E test
Tuesday - SSM operations 3rd week
Friday - Tourism, Culture & Society individual assignment due

I feel like just banging my head all the wall and coma for this semester. On top of everything i've listed, don't forget i still have Track and Field training & Dance. So, how am i doing? i am trying to cope with everything right now.

I feel so tired thanks to tourism culture, slept at 2 AM?! and woke up at 6AM. I would never want to do that again. I'm rotting in the lab with Tiffany, Li ling and Edeline, i guess i shall go lecture at 5PM, wanted to give it a miss. But, i shaldn't be a bad kid. I'm skipping track training today though. There goes speed endurance training again. SIGH. I wonder when am i free to do speed endurance training.

It's finally a Friday, the day that everyone is waiting for, but apparently not me. As much as i want to enjoy my weekends and be free like a bird. I have school work and it's urgent. Tourism Culture presentation on Monday and i only have two days to do it. Good luck to me and the other 3 presenters. It's Saturday tomorrow and i have like a 9AM SIP briefing in school, what a start to my Saturday. I miss the times where i could just slack my Saturdays away in town. I'll be in school like almost whole day since i have dance at 330PM. Oh well, hope it's well spent.

I just finished M.I.C.E presentation, thank God it went well, nervous but i survived. I didn't know i was talking to fast. I guess i got to slow the pace down on Monday.
Next week is crazy, there's BESE test and Tourism Culture. Need to mug like crazy. Rahh! Actually, i won't mug, i'm seriously not a mugger. FAIL.

Anyway, i'm happy all this test and presentations are after O school Recital, at least i have lesser things to worry about. I miss O school Recital a lot, like A LOT. It was simply too awesome(: I shall do a special ZOMBIE post soon for all my fellow zombie mates and recital people. I've been busy, now it's my free time before training, that's why i get to blog. But, I promise i'll blog that special post.

As much as i hate this semester, i guess it's a good experience and it's going to test my determination to the maximum. With dance, track and studies. It's gonna be crazy. There's like SSM this module, with a whole lot of difficult subject. Intensive training for Pol-ite and Juste Debout in January. I'm going to die or what. People say "just keep hanging on" But, let me ask, "hang on to what?"

how do i cope with everything? I really do not know, i just give it my all and try.I don't know the ending because i never thought about how it would benefit me. All i think about is now, this is all i want and i'm doing it. Everyday i ask myself the same questions even though i've answered them before. I don't know why, but it's the only stuff on my mind. Dance, Track, Studies.I feel like i'm going crazy, friends are the only things keeping me sane.A lot of times i feel like crying, not because i'm sad or anything. I simply can't find the reason to cry at all. I'm so tired of my very own life, the very one that i chose for it to be, i guess i was overly ambitious of what i can do with it. I guess i thought i was superwoman. I'm human, and there's always a limit to strength, no matter how strong my passion is, there's gonna be a day when my body can't keep up with it. I don't know what to do because i hate making choices. To give up one thing, it'll feel like half of me is gone. For now, all i can do is keep going.

School is killing me, Sugarloaf operations start next week!
I don't understand all the subjects i'm taking.

Recital is this weekend, Can't wait. It's probably the only thing i look forward to right now

Track is becoming more intensive.