locked up inside
Sunday, March 3, 2013 @ 1:05 AM
when i thought its all gone, it came back without warning.
it's hurting all over again. why.
so broken inside that i find it hard to put it back together.
Do i really mean nothing to you at all.
All you see is others and never me
I'm just the one that came along and taken for granted.
I've learned being nice never pays, being nice means letting people climb over your head
but, i treat people how i want to be treated.
i guess people don't know the same logic.
I don't ask for much really, but to treat me like a person.
visible and existing.
I thought i was so over it
but i wasn't.
when i saw you i felt my whole world crash and burn.
i felt like every bit of happiness had flown away
i felt pain,sadness and anything possible that describes unhappiness.
i don't know why i felt that way
maybe because at that moment i know the feeling didn't go away
maybe because i know i'm not over it.
whatever it is, i always knew it wasn't worth it
the foolish me simply hang on to it.
my heart hurt so bad all i wanted to do was go to a corner and cry
but i didn't.
I know you aren't worth my tears
i probably felt the tears coming 4 times, but i held them back.
because i really felt that much pain inside me.
I thought it was over, because i buried everything inside of me.
deep down.
so when it came back, it sprung up so fast like a cannonball.
why you of all people
why you
why do i pick the one that doesn't give a shit about the world
why do i pick the one that helped me and cause me pain all at the same time
as much as i am so pissed off,sad and unhappy about the whole thing
what puzzles me is i can't help it.
i still feel that something.
it scares me sometimes.
but here's what i tell myself after all of those nonsense:
"I failed myself today, but i'm gonna be stronger tomorrow"
xx