BCS and Econs!
go go go.
i can make it.

throw all those crap away
live the way you want
amanda be strong.
you're just having a bad luck, SM.
wtf

just dance with your heart
i remember.
something i must work on, after much thinking
foundation.
im starting all over.
my basics are not strong enough.

thank you auntie for never failing to make me laugh at the end of the day!
can't believe when i was so down, scared you still can make me laugh

"if he do anything just tell me lor"
most comforting words=)
thank you very much for backing me up.
i know i'll make it through

okay finally slept for 9 hours minimum
good
YAY

went to Jas's house to do project
sorry was late
my mum buy me lunch when i said i dont want
so had to eat at home
but i think we are productive today!
so good job everyone!

tomorrow OB presentation=.=
lucky dont need wear formal.
and i think it's quite stupid

nothing much to blog today.
lazy to think about stuff nowadays
although i have a lot to ponder over.

LATE POST: this is for 18 July, Saturday

Dance training in the morning
late again
Stan was late too
haha!
GRR.23 drove slower than i ride bike!
irritating
today's choreo was good
felt good today, i think my groove was back on.

went for lunch after class
jannson,zhian,elijah,diana,alisha and cheryl
Carl's Jnr
OMGOSH cannot finish

went oschool, YAY Jannson went popping
he kept knocking the wall during class? HAHAHA
today's choreo kinda fun
got the scarecrow thing.
after class, almost the whole open class
went to eat western food!
the western food is damn nice! 0.0
shall eat again soon.
went to the MRT with Justin
OMGOSH JUSTIN IM SO SORRY, THE MRT CLOSED ON YOU PLUS MY BAG!
hope you didn't get injured!
stupid MRT, it closed faster than usual
i feel so guilty.

watched Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
it was good, cause for this book is not much action anyway
but more of understanding what is going on exactly.
emotions were good.

im sleepy.need sleep
i want SD new ERA looking cap!!

went for RHT lecture
it was damn bloody boring
slept.
totally didn't listen. haha

did project for the whole afternoon
skipped BCS lecture for project
Org Beh and Commskills
Org Beh was on time
Commskills we submitted two minutes late.
the door slammed at our faces and "put inside the box" was all
saturday sunday commskills teacher don't work
so 50% of our grade is gone
damn it
we ran from engine to business school.
well a lot of people were running since 5pm was submission
we tried.
but i do hope we pass
RHT due monday!
OH GOSH.

tomorrow morning dance training.
yay.
wanted to go rp session
but i finish like damn late
so lazy.

amanda needs to stop being lazy and practise!

when will it be my turn to shine

presentation was okay
scary though
many said it is easy and fun
but not for me, cause im not that outspoke.
hands were shaking.
gosh.
horrible feeling

went for holqa dinner after project that ended at 6pm or something.
so little people once again
xephry came even though he's in zetten.
reach home like 10pm
it was fun even though there was very little people
i miss the noisy holqa

today/yesterday since its a late post.
is all about confidence
luqman asked me if i'm joining Floor The Love(FTL)
at first, i straight away said no
cause i know i'm not good enough
he said train hard and smart and i needed confidence
and he said this:
"confidence will come if you start loving yourself,
love who you are and then you can love what you do better"
actually he told me to try for fun
thought it was nice
this was really a good reflection for me.
thought about it the whole day
and i know if i wanna get better i know i have to overcome my fears.
thank you luqman
although i can't join cause my partner,Alisha thinks its better to join next year.

Talking to Auntie again
it's like a everyday thing now
it feels good to talk to him
cause can say anything i want without thinking what he would think.
is like a complaint channel
was talking about my presentation which lead to talking of dance
he said something about go freestyle on stage then.
i was like no way, you crazy, i so noob, and 'CUI'
i keep emphasizing 'CUI'
he just said practise! also not ask you to perform.
and one thing that sent chills to my bones and touched my heart
"don't think so much, just practise with your heart"
i was like wow.seriously speechless
but thank you

i can feel the oppportunity just right at my finger tips
slipping away.
next year i would be so busy.GOSH
Time management

Later today i've got my first official presentation in TP
Int HT
never been good in public speaking
never been good in presentations
just hope i dont freak out and faint
maintain my cool, stay calm
just need to relax
i just wanna pass this presentation

never ending projects is killing me
screw it
haven't been hip hopping this week
ahhh!

modern was painful
all my past injured areas were cramping and hurting
blame myself for not strengthening them.

i just can't wait for weekends