Insane Moments

Between who you are and who you could be.

I'm Amanda. 20. I dance and I run.
Graduated from Leisure and Resort Management,
but I have no idea what I want from life yet.
Don't judge me.

drift

Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 11:53 PM

one of the few best people that i've ever met(:

my supposingly fruitful day seems to have went to waste
suppose to study really hard
but end up keep getting distracted
and my mind just wandered off
i need to buck up
sigh
where's the motivation when i need one
i never felt so not like studyingin quite awhile
the slacking feel kick in i suppose

thinking of you just makes me drift away from everything
i don't want to screw up my studies
i don't have much time left to study
i will stop thinking about you
i know i will have to
i promise myself, today is the last day
goodbye

surprises

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 @ 11:53 PM

okay i've no pictures from my birthday withme
cause it's with whoever that has a camera
my camera screwed up pretty bad
so i'm kinda sad there's not much photos=(

but anyway
Thanks 1K05 for another surprise
seriously unexpected, and i didn't know anything
all of you sneaky people trick me.
had a nice cake and song singing at the last tutorial for the semester
which is Marketing
but despite the tricking me part
THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH
I'LL MISS THE CLASS!
BUT WE'LL STILL SEE EACH OTHER!
LOVE Y'ALL.

really a big THANK YOU TO ALL!
=)

if you were mine
you would be the only thing
that i would ever need

birthday

1:16 AM

when i thought my birthday was gonna be bad

it turned out really awesome!

and probably the happiest one i had so far.

my day was slightly ruined by a traffic jam in the morning

causing me to be late

and a interview role play with Mr Davidson that has time over run.

just wanna say a couple of thank yous!

Thanks to my parents for the cash presents in the morning!

Thanks to 1K05 for the card and the expensive perfume!

POM was enjoyable=)

i love i K05, we're bonded!

Thanks to TPDE like a whole lots!

never thought you guys would take so much trouble to buy a cake

but really thank you guys, for the cake

the awesome and crazy times we spend together dancing or not.

GEMS are well on its way so are the exams

we can do well for both! so let's all work harder=)

LOVE Y'ALL

Finally, Thanks to these few crazy toots

Kayla, Noreen and Divya for the so called awesome planning

waiting for me to finish dance

and having dinner at swensens with me

laughing our heads off like nobody's business

and the lovely present with a collation of some cash.

Really Thank you! appreciate it!

you guys are the best things that ever happened in my life

and hope we'll remain like that till we grow old and look like grandmas

Love y'all from the bottom of my heart.

In addition, thank you to the people who chip in for the cash present

which is namely, Cheryl, Alisha, Diana, Piriyah, the 3 toots, Leslie and Gina!

not necessary but thanks a whole lot!

Alisha and Cheryl for the cute card!

those verbal wishes from whoever

Facebook wishes and SMS wishes

i appreciate everyone, and i had a great time.

hope everyone had a great day too!

i saw him today!

minutes before midnight

Monday, February 8, 2010 @ 11:45 PM

it's like about 15 minutes before midnight
which means i'm turning 18 soon
i don't fear the number.
i just feel like i'm suddenly becoming like 20 years older
instead of a one year jump.

18 years of living
well i remember a lot of stuff
from being a little innocent kid
to loving sports, especially track
and ending up in tp currently.
i miss a lot of things
i know i regret doing and not doing certain things
but all that matters is that i cherished what i once had
and everyting remains good memories
bad memories are part of my life
every single horrible and embarassing moment
i do remember them, more clearly than the good ones.

today i thought about a lot of stuff
what if no one remembers my birthday?
what if i wasn't happy at all?
i guess i won't be extremely upset
i'm just glad i'm living, it's just a birthday
obviously like most people i wish to celebrate
i wish to the world it's my birthday(not literally)
but circumstances change and things happen
i just got to live with it right?

one thing i'm sure of is that the day would pass as quickly as it comes
so i hope i can make the best of it.

goodbye world
i just pray i'm happy

not knowing

Sunday, February 7, 2010 @ 11:34 PM

i don't know what's wrong with me
really sorry people
certain things i say recently isn't so pleasant
i know it comes out wrong
but i don't know why its like that
i'm just screwed up at the moment

dance is intense right now
bruises and aches are like constant
fatigue is like normal
i'm like so tired i can hardly study
brings me to my next point
exams are on its way like a bullet train
and i haven't start shit
i need to work harder

cny i only bought two tops
damn lazy to buy other stuff especially bottoms
cause i hate to try them

that's all for updates
goodbye

did i make the right choice

Wednesday, February 3, 2010 @ 10:43 PM

My studies are starting to screwed

i can feel it

dance is overloading cause of concert

don't have time to study

don't have time to shop for CNY

like i said 2010 haven't seemed very bright

now adding on to my problems is one fucking irritating arse.

dance is not my dream

dance is not my life

it is something i like to do

what do i want from life, i don't know yet

there are times when i rather study than dance

sometimes the other way round.

now it's a time i'm stuck in between

i don't wanna let my parents down and screw up my studies

cause this isn't what is suppose to be like.

what can i do.

let things flow

Monday, February 1, 2010 @ 11:15 PM

wonder what is it like to be free
maybe it's been awhile since i had a break
maybe things just doesn't seem right at the moment
i'm getting caught up with things i don't want to
things i should be concerned about, i'm not doing it
Amanda, what the fuck is wrong with you.