The crazy weeks are over, for now that is. Life hasn't been great, but i'm surviving. Busy as usual and i'm tired or this life i'm living. The thing is no one really understands. As much people say "anything you can talk to me" or "i'll be there when you need me", it never happens as far as i'm concern. It's just comforting words to say to you, to somehow make you feel better that "hey i've got your back". Initially, it feels good. But, when i think about it, it doesn't, it's all just false hope. The fact is, when people say that they don't mean it. When you're in trouble, they don't really care cause it doesn't concern them. They don't really want to listen to you either, they simply just don't know what to say.

It's a monday, not beautiful at all. How i wish it was the holidays where i can just sink into the comforts of my super single bed and not get up. It was a crazy weekend i've got to say. RESEARCH. That is what occupied most of my weekend, other than dance, SIP briefing and watching Megamind that is.

Sidetrack a little, An An taught her recital choreography in class, awesomeeee! but high level of diffculty which i died. SIP breifing was.. well you can picture it like a lecture at 9AM in the morning. Megamind was funny, but i think Kungfu Panda is still the best cartoon movie i've watched.

Anyway, back to research. Tourism,Culture and Society presentation literally sucked the life out of me. It was difficult to find information, the internet literally has no information on Cultural Tourism, let alone the contribution to economic, social and environmental development. I simply elaborate my way through the presentation since my slides were hardly passable with no visuals and case study. I felt like a screwed up case. Thank goodness it's over. Both my individual presentations that is. But, there are many other deadline and crazy things upcoming.

This week:
Tuesday - SSM operations 2nd week
Wednesday- BESE test
Thursday - Understanding Art, Visual journal entry
Friday - Tourism, Culture & Society test

Next Week:
Monday - M.I.C.E test
Tuesday - SSM operations 3rd week
Friday - Tourism, Culture & Society individual assignment due

I feel like just banging my head all the wall and coma for this semester. On top of everything i've listed, don't forget i still have Track and Field training & Dance. So, how am i doing? i am trying to cope with everything right now.

I feel so tired thanks to tourism culture, slept at 2 AM?! and woke up at 6AM. I would never want to do that again. I'm rotting in the lab with Tiffany, Li ling and Edeline, i guess i shall go lecture at 5PM, wanted to give it a miss. But, i shaldn't be a bad kid. I'm skipping track training today though. There goes speed endurance training again. SIGH. I wonder when am i free to do speed endurance training.

It's finally a Friday, the day that everyone is waiting for, but apparently not me. As much as i want to enjoy my weekends and be free like a bird. I have school work and it's urgent. Tourism Culture presentation on Monday and i only have two days to do it. Good luck to me and the other 3 presenters. It's Saturday tomorrow and i have like a 9AM SIP briefing in school, what a start to my Saturday. I miss the times where i could just slack my Saturdays away in town. I'll be in school like almost whole day since i have dance at 330PM. Oh well, hope it's well spent.

I just finished M.I.C.E presentation, thank God it went well, nervous but i survived. I didn't know i was talking to fast. I guess i got to slow the pace down on Monday.
Next week is crazy, there's BESE test and Tourism Culture. Need to mug like crazy. Rahh! Actually, i won't mug, i'm seriously not a mugger. FAIL.

Anyway, i'm happy all this test and presentations are after O school Recital, at least i have lesser things to worry about. I miss O school Recital a lot, like A LOT. It was simply too awesome(: I shall do a special ZOMBIE post soon for all my fellow zombie mates and recital people. I've been busy, now it's my free time before training, that's why i get to blog. But, I promise i'll blog that special post.

As much as i hate this semester, i guess it's a good experience and it's going to test my determination to the maximum. With dance, track and studies. It's gonna be crazy. There's like SSM this module, with a whole lot of difficult subject. Intensive training for Pol-ite and Juste Debout in January. I'm going to die or what. People say "just keep hanging on" But, let me ask, "hang on to what?"

how do i cope with everything? I really do not know, i just give it my all and try.I don't know the ending because i never thought about how it would benefit me. All i think about is now, this is all i want and i'm doing it. Everyday i ask myself the same questions even though i've answered them before. I don't know why, but it's the only stuff on my mind. Dance, Track, Studies.I feel like i'm going crazy, friends are the only things keeping me sane.A lot of times i feel like crying, not because i'm sad or anything. I simply can't find the reason to cry at all. I'm so tired of my very own life, the very one that i chose for it to be, i guess i was overly ambitious of what i can do with it. I guess i thought i was superwoman. I'm human, and there's always a limit to strength, no matter how strong my passion is, there's gonna be a day when my body can't keep up with it. I don't know what to do because i hate making choices. To give up one thing, it'll feel like half of me is gone. For now, all i can do is keep going.

School is killing me, Sugarloaf operations start next week!
I don't understand all the subjects i'm taking.

Recital is this weekend, Can't wait. It's probably the only thing i look forward to right now

Track is becoming more intensive.

This year it's my batch of TPDE to choreograph for the batch below. I'm in the popping item together with Diana. From 6 to 5 people and busy plans for me and Diana, i'm glad we manage to pull it off. The performance was just over on Wednesday(20th October), and even though it wasn't perfect, it was still a good show. I'm really happy that everyone made a major improvement! It was tough rushing from place to place but, i'm glad i didn't miss the experience. It was truely eye opening and enlightening. Thank you Aloy, Desmond, Huimin, Jaylene, Alvin and Diana for the great 'POPPING' experience!(: keep dancing; people very much! next up GEMS 6!

Australia: Sydney





It's been two years since i left Singapore and travelled. Finally got the chance to get out and see something, i wouldn't miss it for the world. Initially, suppose to go to gold coast but the couldn't get tickets, so changed to Sydney. I'm really happy that MX and her family asked me along. Really grateful and thankful for the trip and the great experience! Wouldn't have want it any other way. Although we didn't play as much like in theme parks, but we did get to see loads of stuff. Luckily the weather was good when we got there! Cooling and nice!
The best thing as that our hotel was so near the city, it's like a 15 minutes walk away from Market Street(their orchard road) Awesome.
Hot chocolate with Marshmallows and breakfast over their are DA' BOMB!
The plane ride was like pretty good too, Qantas ain't that bad!
I manage to watch all the movies i missed out like Eclipse, Grown Ups, Toy Story 3 and The A-Team. Almost watch Hot Tub Time Machine but i was way too tired on the 7 hours flight back. So a short break down:
Day 1: we took a 4 hours flight to Perth for a transfer to the domestic flight at around 2AM we were at Perth. The domestic flight was around 5+AM so went we got to Sydney it was the early afternoon. We did nothing but rest in the hotel and walk around Market Street. I was so tired i slept at 8PM but woke up at 11PM and couldn't sleep the next 3 hours!
Day 2: It was Blue Mountain Day! Had a Blue Mountain tour guide Jim, who picked us a 8AM and called us the 'Singapore 4'. Anyway it's about 2 hours plus drive out of Sydney and same amount of time back. So the whole day was spent at different par of Blue Mountain. The view was amazing, but i'm lazy to pos all the photos up here. shall upload on facebook soon. I never seen any view like that in my life and i'm so glad we got to seethe famous Three Sisters and had two 1 hour mountain hikes. The second one was tiring, thought i was gonna die. but it was a good experience!
Day 3: We went Darling Harbour.We visited the aquarium and wildlife thing, the animals there are simply awesome! We even got to see the Habour Bridge and the famous Sydney Opera House, it was the day we walked a lot! At night, MX's cousing brought us to an awesome pancake place! wooo!
Day 4: Went to Bondi Beach, their beach, sea and sand was great! non stick sand and fresh air with strong winds and good waves! love it! walked around Bondi Junction for a little shopping almost bought a pair of shoes! but no size! gosh, wanted to import but can't find any website that imports it.
Day 5: It was pure shopping day at Market Street! bought a lot of stuff! yay!
Day 6: Had a little time to shop before heading to the airport for a 7 hours Qantas double deck flight back to Singapore!

Track
Been trying to juggle dance and training a lot, thank goodness i manage to squeeze in training. If not i'm so dead. IVP day 1 was today! 100m individual i didn't do good at all, much worst than training 14.06. but i wasn't sad or anything, just felt i couldn't have done better. Something weird happened at my starts so i don't know. It's okay! at least i finished the race, the weather was cold so i kept cooling down with my naturally tight muscles. Relay was pretty good i guess, but when i finish i think i 'busted' my knee somehow, and it hurts really bad now. Hope i do better next week! overall, it was an okay day! i'm not competitive for track anymore, never was perhaps, but i do try my best. Things change over 2 years ya know.Track to me it's not the most important, but i cannot say i don't love running anymore.Cause i know deep down i still do, i just don't have the competition feel that's all. Win or lose to me it's a small matter. I just want to enjoy myself.

Dance
Luckily i didn't neglect dance totally. In O school recital and i didn't regret one bit. So thankful that i'm in popping cause it's really crazy and fun this year! got to work extra hard but i don't mind, it's all for the show right?

So as you can see i don't have much time for a proper social life, i feel sad at times. But the thing that keep me going are the people and they don't stop me because these two things are what i love most. It's my passion and i'm doing what i can to keep it alive. Maybe i should be concentrating on my GPA more, but i'm not neglecting studies either just taking extra effort for the things i want from my life. Toodles update soon! it's a really long update!
By the way, School starts tomorrow and my timetable sucks! really bad!