falling to pieces
Thursday, October 16, 2008 @ 11:36 PM
O's is 3 days
just 3.
and well i know i'm not prepared
i know that i'm not ready for this
i know my head is not in the zone
i'm trying but i simply can't
my mind simply keeps drifting off
and i probably going to fail two subjects
A math + humanities
feel like dropping
but too late for last minute changes.
i don't know how to carry on sometimes.
i'm not even studying properly
as i'm blogging now
it simply shows
what to do now.
i'm trying to be positive
but i simply can't tune my mind
i try to act like yeah i'm okay
it's gonna be a breeze
everything is fine..
but the fact that it is not
sometimes i wanna say what's on my mind,
i simply don't because i know the response
and i just don't say a thing.
part of me knows that i'm giving up
part of me simply knows i can't hang on to that thin line for long
sooner or later i'll just fall and crash
it would be the end of me.
there are so many times
i just wanted to die
like seriously.
but thinking about the people i would hurt
thinking about what happen after.
i find it a trouble
cause even more problems would surface.
but sometimes i cannot imagine myself living another day.
this version of wait for you is amazing