Insignificance
Monday, December 10, 2012 @ 11:59 PM
The thing is I don't know if I'll ever find myself again.
It scares me that everyday I give myself a reason not to live anymore.
Even if I'm gone, no one is gonna notice.
I don't matter to people anymore.
So many times I just wanna run away
I don't know where I would go, but I just feel like leaving
call it depression, or whatever you want to call it.
I just wanna shut myself in.
I don't know who really cares and who don't
I don't know who is lying
It is scary to put my heart out there and allow people to just take a knife and stab it
And at the end of the day, I don't know who stab it.
I'm not that cool, I'm not that funny, I'm just plain me.
Maybe that's why i'm so insignificant.
I'm not talented, I'm not pretty and I'm not rich.
I'm sorry people who had to be friends with me.
All of you have everything, though y'all complain about it all the time
but y'all don't notice y'all have everything you need right in front of you.
I have none of the things y'all have.
A great family, home and more.
I have none.
I'm not good enough in so many ways, maybe that's why I stay away from everyone
How can anyone love/like me when I don't even love myself
I am not even proud of my own name
Can you believe it, my own name..
Embarrass and people think its funny.
That's how inferior I feel.
Insignificant useless piece of thing.
To read all my post and know i'm in so much pain, its overwhelming
I guess we accept the love we think we deserve.
And I deserve none of it, that's why I push it all away