Don't let the society determine how to live and serve your life? Sometimes I wish it's that easy. I wish, but it is easier said than done. I know that I'm not happy with my life right now at all because all the things I was passionate about has been thrown aside for days in front of the screen typing assignments, days looking at pages filled with words and days taking examinations. I just want my old life back even though it was filled with a lot of activities, but I was happy and motivated to take on the many things. I haven't been dancing, I haven't been running and I haven't been reading storybooks. These are the things that I could feel that I'm myself, things that I can feel the fire in my heart, things that I WANT to do but I simply don't have time for it anymore. This is only the first semester, it's barely two months and I can' t take it, I just don't feel happy anymore. It's so difficult to find things to smile about. I didn't even want to study university in the first place, I don't even have a choice to quit or not. Anyone asked me how I feel?, anyone asked if I wanted this? No, I don't. I just want to be happy. I don't even ask to be rich and famous, just want to be happy and content. Everything is piling up, all areas of life is catching up on me. I can't even cry in my own room, i can't even be me. The house is a mess, it looks like a dumpster, nothing like how home is supposed to be. What happened to life? What happened to everything around me? I just want to leave you know? A lot of days I just want to pack a few clothes and hit the road, but I never knew where to go. Never knew where I can end up. I really just want to get away and not having to worry about everything. I'm just sick of this life I'm living. My temper is so bad and I feel like every stressful thing that comes along, my temper and frustrations shoots up immediately. I can't control it.